I am really glad that C has a good time in child care. I know that child care is not a bad place. I mean, I used to work in day cares and I am a good person, and I used to do a lot of EI visits in child cares and the kids were all doing well. You do what you have to do. I know this. And I know that Punk won't die in child care and she would likely even grow to like it. She likes new things and constant entertainment, and other kids would provide that!

It's just so hard. I wish I could do something part-time but part-time work would pretty much only pay for the day care itself. So that would be a huge waste of time (and money). I just feel like I would miss so much of her life.

Bleh.