As you know, as mothers, we do the best that we can. You're doing the best that you can, and your uterus did the best it could. I'm absolutely not going to tell you not to feel guilty, because guilt (like love) is pretty much an unstoppable emotion.

If you feel that you wake up every day worrying about this, then maybe it is time to see a neurologist. The other day a mama wrote that test results don't change who/how your child is, they just give you more information. I also understand that you are really nervous about the idea of anesthesia- it is scary. Perhaps you could talk to other mamas whose children have been anesthetized for similar procedures?

On of my friend's children has CP-like symptoms and she goes to a cranial-sacral therapist. Perhaps that's an avenue to pursue as well?

Love to you, mama.