i understand the guilt feelings - i really, really do. but you know what? if the choice was gus with her potential issues or no gus at all, which would you choose? i mean, if it *was* the fertility medication, would you do it over again differently?

i know it's hard to control our thoughts...especially these little ones that plant themselves like seeds and then just grow quietly, but there's nothing you can do now but figure out what may or may not be wrong and then just love her like crazy no matter what. i'm pretty sure you can handle that, yes? :)

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