It has nothing to do with your fertility drugs or anything like that. It's just the luck of the draw. If a doctor had said, "well, I can make you pregnant, but you're likely to produce a small placenta and thin cord that may or may not cause some high tone or other small difficulties"...what would you have done? It's not like you thought you were guaranteed a baby without disabilities or challenges. Would you ahve said "thanks, but no thanks. I don't like those odds."

You went for it, and you got GUS. The punkiest Punk ever.

Sure, i understand where the guilt feelings come from. But I am pretty well-acquainted with a certain cute person whose parents should (and don't) feel guilt about how she turned out (so far). So, unless you were hitting the crack pipe pretty hard while you were pregnant, you have nothing to blame yourself for regarding Gus or any other embryo/fetus that there ever was.