I'm not sure what else I could say differently than the previous commenters have said. I know that I'd feel the same as you. I wonder if there are any circumstances where we wouldn't beat ourselves up about our bodies on this one... if we were doctors? But I bet even they have their moments of irrationality. I guess as strong as we are, we do have those irrational moments where we need to understand why something is happening, and when all else fails we turn to our bodies as the answer. As tough as things are in those moments when you're not as strong as other days, just remember that no matter what, you've got a great little one on your hands there.