When your "get up and go" has got up and went.

[judecorp]

(I hanker for a hunk-a cheese.)

I feel like I'm drowning. Seriously, seriously drowning. About a lot of things, but mostly somehow related to biting off more than I could chew WRT having another kid.

Work is draining every drop of energy I manage to wake up with, my productivity sucks which means my pre-baby paychecks suck. I'm financially screwed, my relationship is screwed, I'm physically unable to keep my house up to snuff, and my to-do list for this kid is eight miles long and if I'm being completely honest, is NEVER going to be finished before this kid arrives. Still need to find time to get to Quincy to get our infant car seat, still need to find time to get to Milford to borrow some stuff, haven't seen Grandma in a long while which I feel badly about, still need to assemble Punk's new furniture. Ugh.

I would try writing out my to-do list in order to focus, but I fear that would be a) depressing and b) way too long to be helpful.

So instead I will sit here and pout.

Comments

[rexlezard.livejournal.com]

Bummer. You've got A LOT going on. BUMMER!

If I can help in any way, lemme know.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Dude, you have a lot going on, too!!

p.s. I had my heart set on passing on a certain thing to you for your new baby, and I CAN'T FIND IT!! I tore my nasty basement apart looking for it. AAAAARRRRRRGGGGHHHHHH! I am so annoyed.

Maybe I will find it before you deliver!

[kcmedc.livejournal.com]

Hugs. My only assvice is take things one step at a time and instead of making a list as to what needs to be done make a list of what you have accomplished. even if its a little thing add it to the list. you'd be surprised to see just how much you are getting done in a day. I've BTDT and I know what you are feeling. HUGS HUGS HUGS hang in there.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Heh, if I made a list of what I /had/ done, it would be a very short list, and would include things like, "moved random crap from one room to another." LOL!

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry things are so hard right now :( Adding a new baby is stressful, but you will be so in love when you see Punker and new baby playing together in another year. Promise!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I hope so. Right now it just seems like the worst idea I ever had.

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

It will still feel like a bad idea for a while when the baby comes. Honestly. It's going to get worse before it gets better BUT look at us we got through it when Charlotte came and we were crazy enough to sign up for one more trip LOL! The love my girls have for each other now just overwhelms me. Emma took Charlotte's hand the other day when we were walking her into her preschool classroom and said, "come on sissy". Melted my heart.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

That is very sweet.

Punk tells everyone who asks that she is having a baby sister. She is going to be awfully disappointed, no matter how many times I correct her.

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

Emma is convinced we are having a "baby Emma" I've told her a million times that will not be her name. We'll see how she takes that when the baby comes. I'm sure Punker will get used to the idea of a brother quick because if he's as cute as she is how can she not :) You could just put him in dresses every now again to please her LOL!

[enchantedmagic.livejournal.com]

I relate to this statement completely. But in the end- I have faith in some big picture- something bigger than us that kinda makes things worth while in the end.

Lot's of love your way. It will settle down in time. Don't be too hard on yourself. :-)

[indigodove.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Wish we lived closer -- we would help you out!

So instead, I'll send you good vibes from afar.

[kinsey-six.livejournal.com]

wish i had advice or something wise to say. sorry things are rough. i'm kinda local. if you need anything let me know.

[shellipsm.livejournal.com]

<3

[whuffle.livejournal.com]

Try to step back and put it all in perspective. What things on your wish list do you absolutely HAVE to get done? What things must you do before your son arrives to make sure the home that he and Punk share with you will be safe? Take care of those things first. Get the basics down. If he sleeps in a bassinet in your room for a couple months, it won't hurt him. If you need to do just one cleaning chore each night, then focus on only that one and ignore the rest of the list. Use paper plates and plasticware for a little while if not dealing with dishes will mean that you have the energy to do something more important. Arrange a playdate for Punk, maybe even overnight at a nearby friend, so you and Kieron can get Punk's new bed squared away. If you need to ask friends to come help you haul guest room furniture into the basement, give a shout and see who answers, you might be surprised that people you didn't expect to have free time to help out. Hell, if you're really desperate and have a friend who's not employed right now, make a bargain; you feed him/her or pay a small amount and he/she does some of the stuff that you're too tired to do.

Seriously, in the end, what matters right here and right now is that you and your family all make it to the finish line (the birth of your son) alive and healthy. So focus on only the thing that you need to make that goal.

Let the rest of it go, and just breath.

I'll talk to Halleyscomet and see if we can arrange for one or the other of us to make a Bonzai run up and back to NoHo some weekend soon.

[stapynam.livejournal.com]

Not to invalidate all of your very real stressors, but don't discount hormones and fatigue. They don't create the problems, but they sure do magnify them!

The next 6 months will be hard, but you'll come out on the other side and love this baby just like you love Punk. You have to, there's no alternative.

Hang in there.

[auntiesiannan.livejournal.com]

*kneads your feets* feet feet feet, you need some feet kneading.

[kjames.livejournal.com]

You'll survive it all, I promise. And one day, in the what seems like now the verrrrry distant future, you will be so glad you put yourself through all this. You'll be really really glad. I PROMISE.

[capricious05.livejournal.com]

:(
I hope it gets easier / more manageable / less overwhelming soon

*hugs*