When your "get up and go" has got up and went.

[judecorp]

(I hanker for a hunk-a cheese.)

I feel like I'm drowning. Seriously, seriously drowning. About a lot of things, but mostly somehow related to biting off more than I could chew WRT having another kid.

Work is draining every drop of energy I manage to wake up with, my productivity sucks which means my pre-baby paychecks suck. I'm financially screwed, my relationship is screwed, I'm physically unable to keep my house up to snuff, and my to-do list for this kid is eight miles long and if I'm being completely honest, is NEVER going to be finished before this kid arrives. Still need to find time to get to Quincy to get our infant car seat, still need to find time to get to Milford to borrow some stuff, haven't seen Grandma in a long while which I feel badly about, still need to assemble Punk's new furniture. Ugh.

I would try writing out my to-do list in order to focus, but I fear that would be a) depressing and b) way too long to be helpful.

So instead I will sit here and pout.

Comments

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I hope so. Right now it just seems like the worst idea I ever had.

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

It will still feel like a bad idea for a while when the baby comes. Honestly. It's going to get worse before it gets better BUT look at us we got through it when Charlotte came and we were crazy enough to sign up for one more trip LOL! The love my girls have for each other now just overwhelms me. Emma took Charlotte's hand the other day when we were walking her into her preschool classroom and said, "come on sissy". Melted my heart.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

That is very sweet.

Punk tells everyone who asks that she is having a baby sister. She is going to be awfully disappointed, no matter how many times I correct her.

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

Emma is convinced we are having a "baby Emma" I've told her a million times that will not be her name. We'll see how she takes that when the baby comes. I'm sure Punker will get used to the idea of a brother quick because if he's as cute as she is how can she not :) You could just put him in dresses every now again to please her LOL!

[enchantedmagic.livejournal.com]

I relate to this statement completely. But in the end- I have faith in some big picture- something bigger than us that kinda makes things worth while in the end.

Lot's of love your way. It will settle down in time. Don't be too hard on yourself. :-)