I'm sure I'm definitely keeping some things in check by being the Counselor of the bunch, by reassuring everyone else that they're okay and such. Rick has been handed a lot of the Manager tasks (by nature of his being the first-born and a boy and all of that good stuff) and I really feel terrible that he keeps being given a laundry-list of things to do... I do hope that he knows he can delegate anything he wants to me and also that he doesn't have to if doing these things is going to help him.

I'm sure that things will come up at holidays and milestones and the like. I can't imagine going through my life and NOT thinking, "I wish Dad were here to see this," or whatever... but yeah, I think it's definitely possible that once everything is once and for all Over and Done With, when there are no more picayune tasks to take care of, there could be a different picture of grief.

And I'm okay with that, too.