Relaxed already

[judecorp]

Happy birthday, michael622!

My 4pm home visit got cancelled, so I was able to go home earlier and straighten out the crazy bill I got from Boston IVF. Now I know we only owe them for the yearly sperm storage fee. Much easier to stomach than the scary big bill for EVERYTHING we've had done there.

I also called to cancel my last acupuncture appointment. I feel more relaxed already. Also, no one answered the phone and it went to voicemail, so I was able to /totally/ avoid conversation. I decided to cancel after Jen called me and left me a message saying that she strongly urged me not to go since it would likely not end up in a positive result. I took her words to heart, and realized that I'd also been sort of dreading going anyway. I hate to waste the money (we pre-paid and you have to pay if you cancel in less than 24 hours) because I /hate/ wasting money in general, but I feel like this is for a greater good.

So instead of going somewhere that I feel anxious and potentially having a confrontation with someone I don't mesh well with, I will enjoy a leisurely evening at home and cook a delicious dinner for my lovely wife that we can share together when she gets home from work. And then maybe we'll settle in and watch a few more episodes of the final season of Queer as Folk, since we can't seem to get new discs fast enough!

Jen and I have had our ups and downs over the years, and we've certainly had no shortage of crappy things happen to us, but I still think we make a pretty good team. She really stepped up with the love and comfort when I was very upset about the acupuncture mess, and I'm incredibly grateful for that.

Comments

[indigodove.livejournal.com]

I think you made the right choice. Have a lovely evening!

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

I think having a supportive spouse or partner is absolutely crucial to someone going through infertility. When we m/c I lost 4 lbs in 24 hours. I wouldn't eat or drink anything. Felt like I wanted to die. Joel sat by my side the whole time handing me kleenex after kleenex as I sobbed. He finally persuaded me to eat a grilled cheese and took me out for a slurpee (my fav). I probably would still be in bed wallowing if it weren't for him.

[michael622.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much! :)

[ladyoracle.livejournal.com]

Glad to hear that you're not going back to the wicked acupunturist.

[skreeky]

I'm so glad you didn't go back.

And yay for sweeties. UP WITH LOVE!