I can't say I can completely relate, aside from my general feeling that the whole process of "growing up" has meant that I've had to act more the part of a woman...which I resent.

But I can say that the little bit I *do* relate (as far as gender ambiguity or identification goes), you've got it dead on. And the parts that are bigger than what I can empathize with - well, thank you for sharing. Fluidity of gender has been a big interest of mine for a long time (hence, the sociology degree and all) and I respect that you are able to put into words and share your experience.

Also, I love you, no matter if you're Mr. Jude or Mrs. Jude.