It was one of the things I thought about when I was going to be the one to carry the baby or carry first.

In fact when we were in Ohio a guy we knew looked at us after we had said we wanted kids and immediately honed in on Jude and said "So you are going to carry the baby, right?" And this was when *I* was going to be the one and I felt like - Shit, I am going to lose my Butch street cred or something equally stupid. But then I thought about it and other such comments/perceptions and I did see it happening again and again and having it tangle up with my already neurotic thoughts about getting pregnant.

Now, I may *still* try to have a baby someday soon and it concerns me from that end as well.

Hrmmm...no winning either way.