Aah well.

[judecorp]

I tried to buy a new bed today. Do you have any idea how difficult it is to find a queen-sized futon in northwest Columbus? I didn't either. Feh. I have to call a few other places. Maybe I can shop tomorrow before class. Yes, I suppose I can between the haircut and the library. The thought of shaving my head is very very tempting. Opinions?

I was in a real downer of a mood earlier, so much so that I was a walking pit of despondence almost. God, that sucks. I hate that sort of attitude. It is so counterproductive. I mean, you're unhappy, then you wonder what is wrong with you that you can't be happy, so you get down on yourself, which makes you unhappy... etc. I am now blasting 'Rock Lobster'. It's physically impossible to be unhappy when that's on. I think I will call Natalie later, too. After Mark, before Mark, I dunno. Natalie is my oldest friend ever. I met her when I was five. She lives in Orlando now, though.

I may start looking into martial arts classes. Foo put the bug in me. I am going to start going to the gym again. Fuck this sitting around crap! Blah.

Rock Lobster's going to be done in a second. I need to come up with another obnoxiously happy song. Hmmm. Lessee... this will do.

Friday is Jiggly and Baga day! Saturday is the nerd-b-que! These are Very Good Things . Soon I will have my own bedroom. This is also very good, and very necessary, given the Situation of Hostile Angst. Tomorrow I get on the waitlist for OSU's free student counseling. If he doesn't want to go, fuck it, it will be yet another thing that I will do on my own.

Mark says I need to have fun. Nerd-b-que will be fun. I wish I was rowing. Heh. I never thought I would say /that/ again! :) I miss crew!

~//~

Gentle Mother
Lunar Beauty
Upon your breast I lay my weary head
Your tide my soothing cradle
Your aura my nightcap
Your creatures my lullaby
Let me awaken refreshed, pure,
And prepared to live your rituals.
Let me work.
Let me play.
Let me love!
In your living womb I put myself to rest
So I may be born anew at morning's light.

Comments

Jiggly's Thoughts. :)

[hazelpeach.livejournal.com]

Noooo.. don't cut your hair!1! :) But, in the end it's your hair, and yoru right. I dunno how you'd look with it shaved. Have you had it shaved before?

YEs! Take the Martial Art class. I do! (Tae Kwon Do.) It's awesome.. it helps with teh self-confidence, and get in shape, etc. It's awesome. I'd recommend/suggest it to anyone!

Yay me! I'm coming there in FIVE days! (omg) What am I going to pack? What would I wear to the nerd-b-que? What should I bring? What do I do? Say? *meep*

Ice cream. Need Ice cream. :)

I agree with Mark. Ya need some fun, and perhaps this weekend you'll get it! :)

Good thing you're going to call someone. I was about to call you! :)

*smoocharoos*
JW

Forgot to say..

[hazelpeach.livejournal.com]

that I liked that poem! You wrote it? It's really great. I like it a lot... way a lot.

Re: Forgot to say..

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

When I was big into the paganism thing, I wrote all my own ritual-thingers. I don't really do that anymore, but I like reading them. All emotion, no angst.

I'll email you some more, if you'd like. :)

Yes! :)

[hazelpeach.livejournal.com]

I always like those kind of poetry. When I was big into the Wicca as well, i wrote all kinds of poetry for Mother Earth and Father Sun. :)

I don't ahve them anymore, for my harddrive crashed. :(

SO, yes, I'd like to see them if you don't mind sharing them. :)

[thespian.livejournal.com]

if he goes, then he wants to work with you on the relationship.

if he doesn't go, then there's your damn answer.

I need to not comment because....well, me commenting on your marriage isn't my place, and I commented too much to Baga and Dory when it happened.

But remind me that if A comes out in the next 5 years (is it 5? I bet 10 from the wedding), your brother owes me $50.