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I'm not afraid of the telephone, but I'm afraid of the words behind the earpiece, and the ones in front of the mouthpiece, and the ones in my head. I'm afraid of another night curled in my bed with intentions of cheer and news and sharing that become overshadowed by frustration, sorrow, and guilt. I don't even want to look at the pocket-sized demon, what it symbolizes, what it can do, what it has done, what it might do if I should touch it, pick it up, dare to open it, press its buttons. I'm afraid of another night where I don't say a single thing that I wanted to, and instead say a million that I don't.

I broke a board last night for the first time. With a side kick.

I had wanted to tell you that.

Date: 2002-05-02 07:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] geniusorafool.livejournal.com
Yep, phones are dangerous things...as our words. Both still catch me off guard now and then.

Date: 2002-05-02 10:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] asmodel.livejournal.com
You broke a board hey? Impressive amount of force. I broke too many things in my angry youth days.

Date: 2002-05-03 12:24 am (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
I'll second words being more frightening when conveyed by telephone. Robert and I never say the right things on the phone and it never quite sounds like him, especially when he's overseas. Mostly I think I just lack a good phoneside manner, though.

Kickass on breaking a board! I'm so proud of you... I'll cheer if you promise not to clap when I use the bathroom. (Potty training is an excruicatingly slow process and it seems I'm the one being trained -- the munchkin claps when I go instead of the other way around.)

Melissa (http://www.oddharmonic.org/)

Date: 2002-05-03 05:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] judecorp.livejournal.com
Well, this was a thin, wussy board, and it was in kickboxing class, but it was pretty fun. :)

No anger involved.

Date: 2002-05-03 05:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] judecorp.livejournal.com
Words can be very dangerous. Very risky.

Date: 2002-05-03 10:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] whod81.livejournal.com
for a second i thought you said 'broke a broad for the first time' and i was like... 'dude breaking broads is easy...'

Date: 2002-05-03 10:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] judecorp.livejournal.com
You make me giggle.

Re:

Date: 2002-05-04 11:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] asmodel.livejournal.com
Woo, our powerful kickboxer Jude:)

Date: 2002-05-05 07:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] judecorp.livejournal.com
*flexes*

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