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The good, the bad, and the ugly
Mar. 4th, 2002 09:17 pmThe Good:
Spent the weekend with the girl, which was nice, even though she was in pain for most of it, or unconscious. Highlights:
-listening to my walkperson, stroking her hair and softly singing "Power of Two" while she slept on my chest
-witnessing her starting to feel a little bit better last night (and enjoying it)
-getting /so/ much sleep on Friday -- two good hour or so naps and then dozing during "Mummier" and then a solid night's sleep -- I must have been exhausted. One of the naps was spent curled around each other. Wonderful.
-not having to think about Ohio obligations for three days
-driving the Jeep! (heh) made me miss the DAV.
The Bad:
I am so stressed out. My goodness. I don't know if I'm coming or going. I have a 15-35 page paper for my Marriage and Family class due a week from Thursday (and it's going to be 15 tops) and a final in that class on the same day. I have a 20 page paper for my Adolescents class due the following Tuesday. I have my Comprehensive Exam (5! Hours! Of! Suck!) that Friday.
That doesn't sound so bad, I suppose, except that:
-I volunteer right after work tomorrow, giving me a day that starts at 8:15am when I leave for work and ends at 9:15pm when I get home from Kaleidoscope
-I can't get around to getting the rest of the articles for my Adolescents paper until Friday afternoon, and then I have to start on the Marriage & Family paper, because it really needs to be completely and totally done by the weekend
-The weekend before the Adolescents paper and the Comps, Jen and Jenn will be here. I drop my girl off on Monday on my way to work, so it's not like there will be lots of paper-writing going on, which means that one needs to be almost done by Friday morning. Whee.
-I won't even talk about the fact that I have 3 Ani concert-goers and 2 Ani tickets. Major failure there.
-To get them that Friday, I need to go into work early. Yawn.
-I still have divorce paperwork that needs to be submitted by the end of the month, in case the court date is the full 90 days after. I don't want this lingering after I want to move. Ick. The questions are: can I afford to have someone prepare paperwork? and when do i have time to go see a lawyer? MUST. GET. THAT. DONE.
-I had nightmares last night. More than one, which is unusual - I never wake up from one and then have another, let alone 4. Everything from murder to the mafia to missing my plane to losing my cell phone to monsters. Eesh. What is wrong with me? I wanted to curl into her, but I had to get to my plane. Suckage.
The Ugly:
Stress level increase = wonkyjude. I was such a basket case for part of the weekend, where I just sort of lost my shit and was blathering on and on about how I was freaking out. I should not have been dumping this on a girl in pain.
And why do these freak outs always seem to happen when I'm naked?
Having problems with the Best Friend again, which just makes me sad. I feel like such a terrible friend, like I'm never there and never attentive. This frustrates me because I know that I give her tons more than I am giving any other friend at this point... and if I'm coming up short with her, the gods only know how short I've been with everyone else. I know I've neglected Coworker Hope hardcore, and her grandmother just died.
I need another day in the week that no one knows about. If I had 24 free hours a week, my life would be smooth sailing.
Don't be afraid to be weak;
Don't be too proud to be strong
Spent the weekend with the girl, which was nice, even though she was in pain for most of it, or unconscious. Highlights:
-listening to my walkperson, stroking her hair and softly singing "Power of Two" while she slept on my chest
-witnessing her starting to feel a little bit better last night (and enjoying it)
-getting /so/ much sleep on Friday -- two good hour or so naps and then dozing during "Mummier" and then a solid night's sleep -- I must have been exhausted. One of the naps was spent curled around each other. Wonderful.
-not having to think about Ohio obligations for three days
-driving the Jeep! (heh) made me miss the DAV.
The Bad:
I am so stressed out. My goodness. I don't know if I'm coming or going. I have a 15-35 page paper for my Marriage and Family class due a week from Thursday (and it's going to be 15 tops) and a final in that class on the same day. I have a 20 page paper for my Adolescents class due the following Tuesday. I have my Comprehensive Exam (5! Hours! Of! Suck!) that Friday.
That doesn't sound so bad, I suppose, except that:
-I volunteer right after work tomorrow, giving me a day that starts at 8:15am when I leave for work and ends at 9:15pm when I get home from Kaleidoscope
-I can't get around to getting the rest of the articles for my Adolescents paper until Friday afternoon, and then I have to start on the Marriage & Family paper, because it really needs to be completely and totally done by the weekend
-The weekend before the Adolescents paper and the Comps, Jen and Jenn will be here. I drop my girl off on Monday on my way to work, so it's not like there will be lots of paper-writing going on, which means that one needs to be almost done by Friday morning. Whee.
-I won't even talk about the fact that I have 3 Ani concert-goers and 2 Ani tickets. Major failure there.
-To get them that Friday, I need to go into work early. Yawn.
-I still have divorce paperwork that needs to be submitted by the end of the month, in case the court date is the full 90 days after. I don't want this lingering after I want to move. Ick. The questions are: can I afford to have someone prepare paperwork? and when do i have time to go see a lawyer? MUST. GET. THAT. DONE.
-I had nightmares last night. More than one, which is unusual - I never wake up from one and then have another, let alone 4. Everything from murder to the mafia to missing my plane to losing my cell phone to monsters. Eesh. What is wrong with me? I wanted to curl into her, but I had to get to my plane. Suckage.
The Ugly:
Stress level increase = wonkyjude. I was such a basket case for part of the weekend, where I just sort of lost my shit and was blathering on and on about how I was freaking out. I should not have been dumping this on a girl in pain.
And why do these freak outs always seem to happen when I'm naked?
Having problems with the Best Friend again, which just makes me sad. I feel like such a terrible friend, like I'm never there and never attentive. This frustrates me because I know that I give her tons more than I am giving any other friend at this point... and if I'm coming up short with her, the gods only know how short I've been with everyone else. I know I've neglected Coworker Hope hardcore, and her grandmother just died.
I need another day in the week that no one knows about. If I had 24 free hours a week, my life would be smooth sailing.
Don't be too proud to be strong
