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Oct. 1st, 2007
Three months of drugs and milk
Oct. 1st, 2007 08:45 pmLittle punk is three months old today! Yesterday was my last ever pill of domperidone. It did its job as best as it could but I couldn't justify ordering more pills when we're still having to give her 22+ ounces of formula a day. I don't know if I will continue to make enough milk to keep her at the boob. She nursed this morning but I don't know what tomorrow morning will bring.
She nursed to sleep for her afternoon nap and I hope that's something that will continue. This whole breastfeeding journey has been incredibly painful but also incredibly sweet, and part of me wishes I had it in me to find a way to justify shelling out big bucks on more pills of minimal improvement. I know that mama milk is best for my little punk, and she is still getting at least one bottle of it per day... it's just not from her mama.
And that, I think, is the hardest part for me to take.
~//~
Jen got me some flowers yesterday to mark the occasion. It was very sweet but it is hard for me to look at them without feeling sad. I wish my body wasn't broken and I was able to feed my sweet baby girl.
She nursed to sleep for her afternoon nap and I hope that's something that will continue. This whole breastfeeding journey has been incredibly painful but also incredibly sweet, and part of me wishes I had it in me to find a way to justify shelling out big bucks on more pills of minimal improvement. I know that mama milk is best for my little punk, and she is still getting at least one bottle of it per day... it's just not from her mama.
And that, I think, is the hardest part for me to take.
~//~
Jen got me some flowers yesterday to mark the occasion. It was very sweet but it is hard for me to look at them without feeling sad. I wish my body wasn't broken and I was able to feed my sweet baby girl.
