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kyoki_tenchi rocks.

I'm sitting on her pull-out sofa with her fuzzy tiger kitty, Pink (her kitties are so cute!) and that sort of sore back that only comes from sofa beds. Why do they all smoosh in the middle so you sleep with a hunchback? Still, I was so tired from the heat that nothing could stop me from sleeping, and the enormous fan she directed at me was wonderful. SHE is wonderful.

She drove like a bat out of hell to pick me up. When she and

soulcatcher73 picked me up, my grandmother was probably thinking, "Why are girls always coming to pick up my granddaughter?" It's funny because Grandma always got irritated in my youth for only having male friends, and when A. and I were married, she kept telling me how inappropriate it was for me to talk to boys. I wonder what she thinks about all of my female friends now. ;)

Anyway, I got to play with

kyoki_tenchi,

soulcatcher73, and

sandnor for a while and then my Chazzie and I went home and gabbed until bedtime. I got a goodnight call from Ms.

doulamel as well, which was cool. And then I took a cold shower because Chaz~~'s apartment~~ was SO HOT!

We're having sushi today, yay! I am so spoiled. And tonight I'll get to see my

siercia, my

scirocco, my Widget, my

prunesnprisms, and her Matty Jean. *dances* (Don't forget the directions, Ms. Siercia Jean, please. I remember the way mostly, but don't want to screw up someone else!)

I know I prattle on and on and on about how blessed I am, but I am, and I'm amazed by this every day. I'm so terribly fortunate and am surrounded by so much love. I don't know what I could have done to deserve so much, but either way, thank you.

~//~

and to think that at this moment
i could have everything i said i wanted
just a few short weeks ago
only to waver and
ignore possibilities
for the impractical
for the impossible
for the pain

and it's true that pain is feeling
and feeling is living, like breathing
but how can i juggle
all these choices
all these wants?
bruised tomatoes, apologies