there used to be words

[judecorp]

there used to be words
and somewhere beside the words was desire
and when desire would stir, and rise, and wake,
the words would follow

and desire was fed with angst
and desire was fueled by longing
and desire was enticed by the need to prove
and desire was routed through chaos

but chaos moved away, and packed the others, too
and the words were there, true,
but no one was poking, and prodding, and listening
and though we say the words are not for audiences -
we lie

so bring back the chaos, then, but just a touch,
and the longing, too, but not the ache
because i do not want to lose your arms
but i need to find new fuel for the words