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judecorpUsually, on the days that I wake up and feel like crap, I drag myself out of bed and into work. And then I'm usually crabby, and I start getting snappy at people who don't deserve it, and I mope around. And inevitably, when people miss/break/cancel my appointments, I still have my crankypants on so I tend to take it personally, which becomes a dismal spiral of feeling crappy and blah.
This morning, I woke up feeling like crap. My head was hurting pretty badly, and I remember getting up once in the night (I never get up in the night), and Daedalus woke me up a couple of times, and Jen says she thinks I got up a second time. I was tired and cranky and blah, and my throat was dry and scratchy, and I was coughing. Between 10am and 2pm, I could only remember 3 appointments - at least 2 others were cancelled already because the residents left the shelter. So to spare everyone at work my snappiness, and to spare myself the regret, I called in and said I would be in at 2. And proceeded to rest and veg out and drink orange juice and double up on my Freddy Flintstones.
I won't say I feel 100% better - my throat is still scratchy (which makes me nervous because there's this weird bronchitis-y thing going through the shelter), though I'm hoping it's allergies from crawling around yesterday looking for my geocache. My head doesn't hurt anymore, and I'm only mildly tired (no more achy head). And my best girl is coming home for lunch early so I can see her before I go back to work. I didn't want her to leave this morning, because I was feeling lousy.
This year, I've made a promise to myself to take better care of myself and do more of what I need. It's hard, me being who I am and working in a helping profession and all of that, not to give myself the guilt when I'm not at work, or when I can't do something for someone, or when I can't be everything to everyone. I'm really working on it, though. I /know/ I would have been no good to anyone this morning... so why bother? That's what sick time is for anyway.
So, yeah. A success this morning, I think. I feel a little better, I won't be cranky and snappy, and I managed to do some of the chores I would have had to do this evening, so my night will be less stressful if I'm still feeling off. Good times.
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This is unrelated to anything above, but I realized this morning that everything that's gone on with this "war" - both what we're doing in the Middle East and what we've done to our civil liberties here in the States - reminds me a lot of treatment of children by abusive parents. There's a lot of abuse happening, there's no denying that. But there's also a lot of "Don't tell anyone what happened," "Tell them you walked into the door," "Don't say anything, no one will believe you anyway," and "If you tell, people will think you're bad." Fuck that!
WHAT IS GOING ON IN THE MIDDLE EAST IS A TRAVESTY. WHAT THE US IS DOING OVER THERE IS COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY FUCKED UP. THEY'RE EVEN ADMITTING THAT 9/11 WAS THE REASON, AND THAT THE OTHER THINGS WERE EMBELLISHED. THIS SHOULD INFURIATE YOU! THEY ARE STRIPPING OUR CIVIL LIBERTIES RIGHT UNDER OUR NOSES AND TELLING US THAT IF WE SAY ANYTHING, PEOPLE WILL THINK WE'RE BAD. THEY ARE WRONG! THIS IS A TRAVESTY! TELL EVERYONE! TELL TELL TELL TELL TELL TELL!!!
Don't tell anyone. Don't tell 'em anything. Don't tell 'em what went on. Don't tell 'em what really happened. Don't tell anyone. Don't tell 'em anything. They won't believe you 'cause it's all your fault!
This morning, I woke up feeling like crap. My head was hurting pretty badly, and I remember getting up once in the night (I never get up in the night), and Daedalus woke me up a couple of times, and Jen says she thinks I got up a second time. I was tired and cranky and blah, and my throat was dry and scratchy, and I was coughing. Between 10am and 2pm, I could only remember 3 appointments - at least 2 others were cancelled already because the residents left the shelter. So to spare everyone at work my snappiness, and to spare myself the regret, I called in and said I would be in at 2. And proceeded to rest and veg out and drink orange juice and double up on my Freddy Flintstones.
I won't say I feel 100% better - my throat is still scratchy (which makes me nervous because there's this weird bronchitis-y thing going through the shelter), though I'm hoping it's allergies from crawling around yesterday looking for my geocache. My head doesn't hurt anymore, and I'm only mildly tired (no more achy head). And my best girl is coming home for lunch early so I can see her before I go back to work. I didn't want her to leave this morning, because I was feeling lousy.
This year, I've made a promise to myself to take better care of myself and do more of what I need. It's hard, me being who I am and working in a helping profession and all of that, not to give myself the guilt when I'm not at work, or when I can't do something for someone, or when I can't be everything to everyone. I'm really working on it, though. I /know/ I would have been no good to anyone this morning... so why bother? That's what sick time is for anyway.
So, yeah. A success this morning, I think. I feel a little better, I won't be cranky and snappy, and I managed to do some of the chores I would have had to do this evening, so my night will be less stressful if I'm still feeling off. Good times.
~//~
This is unrelated to anything above, but I realized this morning that everything that's gone on with this "war" - both what we're doing in the Middle East and what we've done to our civil liberties here in the States - reminds me a lot of treatment of children by abusive parents. There's a lot of abuse happening, there's no denying that. But there's also a lot of "Don't tell anyone what happened," "Tell them you walked into the door," "Don't say anything, no one will believe you anyway," and "If you tell, people will think you're bad." Fuck that!
WHAT IS GOING ON IN THE MIDDLE EAST IS A TRAVESTY. WHAT THE US IS DOING OVER THERE IS COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY FUCKED UP. THEY'RE EVEN ADMITTING THAT 9/11 WAS THE REASON, AND THAT THE OTHER THINGS WERE EMBELLISHED. THIS SHOULD INFURIATE YOU! THEY ARE STRIPPING OUR CIVIL LIBERTIES RIGHT UNDER OUR NOSES AND TELLING US THAT IF WE SAY ANYTHING, PEOPLE WILL THINK WE'RE BAD. THEY ARE WRONG! THIS IS A TRAVESTY! TELL EVERYONE! TELL TELL TELL TELL TELL TELL!!!
Don't tell anyone. Don't tell 'em anything. Don't tell 'em what went on. Don't tell 'em what really happened. Don't tell anyone. Don't tell 'em anything. They won't believe you 'cause it's all your fault!
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Date: 2003-04-30 12:38 pm (UTC)Interesting articles that you linked there. The second one was very disturbing. I can just see things developing into a Big Brother atmosphere where we are afraid to speak. Totally spoils the ideals of this country.
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Date: 2003-04-30 04:20 pm (UTC)What has been troubling me is the 'Anti-American' label that's being plastered to anyone who isn't doing jumping jacks for Bush. Protesters are labeled unAmerican. What is more American than staging a protest? Susan Sarandon and Tim Robbins are a certain death to any benefit they are tied with. Instead of politely asking them to keep away, entire affairs are cancelled. Even those that were to raise money for charities. Are they going to ressurect the House on UnAmerican Activities? Is Joe McCarthy going to be dug up and propped up onto a podium? Scary.
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Date: 2003-05-01 06:17 am (UTC)The only consolation I have is that glimmer of hope that remembers that the evils of the McCarthy 50s were followed by the energy of the 60s... maybe that can happen again SOON.
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Date: 2003-05-01 06:18 am (UTC)*sigh*
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Date: 2003-05-01 09:35 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-05-01 10:12 pm (UTC)Compare The Guardian's text (http://www.guardian.co.uk/Iraq/Story/0,2763,945719,00.html):Qatar's al-Jazeera television station reported that troops had fired on the demonstrators in the town of Falluja, around 30 miles west of Baghdad, after someone in the crowd threw a stone at US soldiers.against The Telegraph's report (http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/main.jhtml?xml=/news/2003/04/30/wirq30.xml&sSheet=/news/2003/04/30/ixnewstop.html): The latter report continues on with quite detailed descriptions from the soldiers... not commanders, not public affairs officers, not any other (ahem) media outlets that might have a political agenda of their own, nor any other spin doctors.
One report cites Al-Jazeera, the other cites the US military... two sources with completely different agendas and outlooks on the larger situation. Sometimes it's worth checking a story from two or three information outlets, just to make sure you're getting the full picture... know what I mean?
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Date: 2003-05-03 10:37 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-05-04 03:05 pm (UTC)Of course it's good to see the situation from different sides. But it's the American way to choose a side and only report that one. Don't you like my display of patriotism? ;)
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Date: 2003-05-04 03:13 pm (UTC)Re:
Date: 2003-05-04 03:35 pm (UTC)Biased reporting is the "American way"? It's not the way news agencies around the world report? Or, more succinctly, human tendency?
Keep in mind, these are British newspapers we are quoting... one of which used a news agency from Qatar as it's primary source.
:-)
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Date: 2003-05-04 03:35 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-05-05 06:42 am (UTC)And yes, it's the way news agencies around the world report. Duh. ;)
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Date: 2003-05-05 07:21 am (UTC)I have always recognized that WMD was not "the reason" we went to war. Saddam has gassed tens of thousands of his own ethnic minorities, paid reward money to Palestinian terrorists, institued a murder and torture program to systematically silence political dissidents, and kept an otherwise progressive nation in an impoverished state of backwardness and oppression, while he lived in wealth and comfort. Speeches and press briefings by the White House, the State Department and the Pentagon over the last 8 months highlight all of these reasons.
Maybe if 60% of the United Nations didn't consist of thugocracies, cleptocracies, and other unsavory regimes, perhaps our government wouldn't have had to dwell on WMD for that audience.
Know what I mean?
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Date: 2003-05-05 07:21 am (UTC);-p
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Date: 2003-05-05 07:55 am (UTC)Did I stand you up? Did we have plans? Didn't you have drill this weekend, and then work at night?
I'm so confused.
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Date: 2003-05-05 07:59 am (UTC)I just thought if I said "where are we meeting for coffee," it would be more difficult for you to say "no"
(i have drill during the day, but am free during the evenings)
PHEW!
Date: 2003-05-05 08:02 am (UTC)I was thinking of maybe looking at Jeeps this weekend...
Re: PHEW!
Date: 2003-05-06 05:53 pm (UTC)(or you can buy one of these (http://www.crosslander4x4.com), new, for $18k)
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Date: 2003-05-07 06:34 am (UTC)Re: PHEW!
Date: 2003-05-07 07:15 am (UTC)Re: PHEW!
Date: 2003-05-07 09:35 am (UTC)