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[judecorp]

I think this is going to be one of those days when I freak out about everything in my personal life. Do not be alarmed, but kids, don't try this at home. I don't know why this happened last night, this morning, and not some other day. I don't know what's so special about today, especially when she's sick - a sickness I likely gave her.

I'm sorry, angel.

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[kieron.livejournal.com]

A week or so ago you told me that I should just tell you the truth when you get inoto a state like this. You told me what to say to you just in case.

The truth is, you want to be with me. The truth is you love me. The truth is I love you. The truth is I want to be with you. The truth is that you want this, us. The truth is that you are scared and so am I.

You may not be able to hear this right now or want to or be okay with it. But that is the truth that I live by right now.

I am freaking out too. Just differently.

[mermil.livejournal.com]

Listen, there are certain days when a persaon needs to freak the hell out. Roll with it. Hide under your bed and moan. Cry for no apparent reason...whatever works for you. Beating yourself up over freaking out will get you nowhere. If you need to rant and rave there is usually a reason-- like, you have worries that are brimming over and you need to get them out. So run down the street waving your arms and legs yelling, "aaaaaaarrrrg!" if it will help you feel better.

[shadist.livejournal.com]

Its a natural reaction to fear.

You fear being wrong, being out of control and not knowing what will happen.

*hug*


Just take some deep breaths and make sure you don't decide anything major when this happens. . . because this too, in time, will pass.

[cappucinogrrl.livejournal.com]

Sorry, not to barge in, but,

awww!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Of course those things are true. That doesn't stop me from feeling like a disappointment.

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Does that really help? I mean, really?

*shrug*

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Well, no. Not really.

I don't fear being wrong. I'm wrong all the time. I'm fine with that. :) (Well, okay, not all the time. I'm right a lot.)

No one ever knows what will happen. It's only when I think I know what will happen that there are problems. And right now... right now, I think I know what will happen.

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[shadist.livejournal.com]

*laughs* I am glad your not wrong all the time. . . It would make your job rather difficult. :)

And, if its not improper for me to ask, what do you think will happen?

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

It's not improper for you to ask, and normally, I would say. There's not much I keep secret, but in this case, the issue involves something the parties involved and I have chosen not to speak about publicly.

Sorry.

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[shadist.livejournal.com]

Don't be sorry at all Milady.

:)

There is, afterall, a reason I asked if it was improper.

There are things Jen and I are and shall be private about as well. . . so no worries.


Just remember that your past doesnt dictate your future and that focusing on, or waiting for, something to go wrong will often make it so.

Reguardless I do hope it works out for you and the parties involved.

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[mermil.livejournal.com]

Sometimes it does. If you feel a strain from trying to contain powerful emotions, yelling Arg can help. Y'all don't know. I mean, I wouldn't recommend doing it on a regular basis, but sometimes it can be cathartic. Other times, it's more helpful to adopt a "this too shall pass" mindset...but only you can decide what's best for you. I hope you feel better, baby girl.

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[grrrrrindigo.livejournal.com]

personally I like the whole arrrrg thing when i'm freaking out... helps me breathe easier...

[kieron.livejournal.com]

At the risk of sounding redundant....

I don't feel you are a disappointment.

I know it doesn't change how *you* feel about it.

I can feel disapointed in things and actions and events and in whatever, but in this case I am not disappointed in a person - specifically you.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

:)

I'm sure it will be fine, really, but I do appreciate the support.

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[shadist.livejournal.com]

Anytime at all.

*smiles*

I try to do my best to help good people.

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[judecorp.livejournal.com]

A lot of times when I'm about ready to burst, I go for these really long walks where I talk to myself out loud. In my neighborhood, fun things happen.

Like once, there was this woman with mental illness walking around with a can of Lysol, and when other people walked by, she mumbled and sprayed them.

Maybe I should try that.

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[judecorp.livejournal.com]

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Good. :)

I just want to give you the best, because that's what you deserve.

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[grrrrrindigo.livejournal.com]

see don't you feel better?

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[judecorp.livejournal.com]

:) Oh yeah.