Are you out there? Can you hear this?
Jul. 10th, 2003 11:59 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
judecorpI'm overwhelmed by frustration today, and I don't know what to do with it (besides throw things). The problem is that when it gets to the point that I'm just one gigantic ball of frustration, nothing works until I've gotten over it. I have two options: a) whine a lot or b) pretend nothing is wrong. Depending on whom I'm speaking with, I use either option.
There have been three big things that have been big potential positives in my life lately: the new job, the new apartment, and the reunion. Currently, these are three big piles of suck. And I am frustrated. This job is totally ending up being a big screw-up and I can't get anyone to call me back. Today I called the fingerprint lady at the State Office, because she told me to call if I couldn't get in touch with the other lady. Guess what - I got voicemail and she hasn't called me back. And so I emailed the admin. assistant and the assistant director, basically telling them that I turned down job interviews for them (true) and that I was now assuming that they gave the job to someone else. I just want someone to call me back, dammit. Jen says I should keep calling until I reach a person, and not leave any messages, but I don't want them to think I'm psychotic. Sigh. They pretty much led me to believe that I had the job in the bag, but I haven't been able to finish the application process, and that was two weeks ago, so why shouldn't I believe they filled the position? It's not like they're calling me to tell me they still want me.
And then, this whole "no dryer vent in the apartment" thing is really frustrating. The maintenance dude came yesterday and verified that there is no vent (duh), and then basically told me he wouldn't be able to put a vent in. Umm, why not? He was telling me I should get this attachment thing to catch the lint, and I tried to frustratedly tell him that it wasn't the lint I was worried about, it was the hot, wet, steamy air that is all over my apartment when I use the dryer. I feel so stupid because I feel like I should have noticed there was no vent before I dropped all that money on a washer and dryer and stuff, especially when I have no job and it doesn't look like I will. I don't want to live in an apartment where I can't use my brand new dryer. I'm just a fool for taking an apartment without looking for the vent, and then buying the damn things. And I'm frustrated because I started calling the landlord about this /before/ the machines were even delivered, and he's not terribly involved with calling me back. A theme.
And this whole reunion thing. Jennifer's trying to be very helpful by looking for airfare online, but I already did that. So I get frustrated and think she doesn't think I know how to look online, which isn't the case, but I'm already over the top. And later, she'll offer to pay for me to go, or some other totally selfless offer, like offering to drive my sorry ass to Rhode Island, but I don't /want/ heroic efforts, you know? I just want something, just one little thing this week, to work out okay.
And I want people to CALL ME BACK.
There have been three big things that have been big potential positives in my life lately: the new job, the new apartment, and the reunion. Currently, these are three big piles of suck. And I am frustrated. This job is totally ending up being a big screw-up and I can't get anyone to call me back. Today I called the fingerprint lady at the State Office, because she told me to call if I couldn't get in touch with the other lady. Guess what - I got voicemail and she hasn't called me back. And so I emailed the admin. assistant and the assistant director, basically telling them that I turned down job interviews for them (true) and that I was now assuming that they gave the job to someone else. I just want someone to call me back, dammit. Jen says I should keep calling until I reach a person, and not leave any messages, but I don't want them to think I'm psychotic. Sigh. They pretty much led me to believe that I had the job in the bag, but I haven't been able to finish the application process, and that was two weeks ago, so why shouldn't I believe they filled the position? It's not like they're calling me to tell me they still want me.
And then, this whole "no dryer vent in the apartment" thing is really frustrating. The maintenance dude came yesterday and verified that there is no vent (duh), and then basically told me he wouldn't be able to put a vent in. Umm, why not? He was telling me I should get this attachment thing to catch the lint, and I tried to frustratedly tell him that it wasn't the lint I was worried about, it was the hot, wet, steamy air that is all over my apartment when I use the dryer. I feel so stupid because I feel like I should have noticed there was no vent before I dropped all that money on a washer and dryer and stuff, especially when I have no job and it doesn't look like I will. I don't want to live in an apartment where I can't use my brand new dryer. I'm just a fool for taking an apartment without looking for the vent, and then buying the damn things. And I'm frustrated because I started calling the landlord about this /before/ the machines were even delivered, and he's not terribly involved with calling me back. A theme.
And this whole reunion thing. Jennifer's trying to be very helpful by looking for airfare online, but I already did that. So I get frustrated and think she doesn't think I know how to look online, which isn't the case, but I'm already over the top. And later, she'll offer to pay for me to go, or some other totally selfless offer, like offering to drive my sorry ass to Rhode Island, but I don't /want/ heroic efforts, you know? I just want something, just one little thing this week, to work out okay.
And I want people to CALL ME BACK.
