judecorp | Look at me, I will never pass for a perfect bride. (Reply)

Can it be, I'm not meant to play this part?

I guess I've been in a bit of a whiny mood, or maybe I'm just stressed out (but why? what do I have to be stressed about?) - I ended up kind of laying into Jennifer last night about being taken advantage of or not appreciated. And since /she's/ stressed out, I'm sure she didn't need that at all. Ugh. What a mess. Just thinking about it exhausts me.

I really don't mind doing things for people, or letting people use my things, or helping people out, or anything like that. I just dislike when people automatically assume I'm going to do the things, so they don't bother to ask me. Or they don't stop to just say thank you. Maybe that's petty and anal, I'll concede that, it just seems right to me. My grandmother was very particular about saying thank you. When we were younger, we had to write our thank you notes before we could really even touch the presents. Heck, I sent a thank you note to my landlord for putting in a dryer vent. Seriously. And when I got married, my thank you notes were done a week after the honeymoon. All of them. (And I wrote them all.) I'm crazy about thank yous, I suppose.

I guess I'm overly sensitive about that sort of thing, and I get to feeling taken advantage of really easily. And I'm probably also overly sensitive about being at home and not working, because I feel useless in a lot of ways, so I start doing a million things around the house. And then I get it into my head that I'm the only one doing things, when I know in reality she's just got a lot going on.

Tonight she has to work on her thesis paper big time, and I have Sekrit Date Night. I will try not to make a big deal out of my sensitivities until the thesis is done and the car situation is dealt with. I can't believe I'm admitting that sometimes the Girl Of Steel gets her feelings hurt. La-dee-frickin-whineypants-dah.

(Thanks for the phone call,