Upcoming trip, incoming sensitivity.

[judecorp]

I got off to a late start, but I've already got the laundry started, the dishes done, the vacuuming done, and some other various tasks. This afternoon I hope to clean the cat boxes and take out the trash, ensuring that all I need to do tomorrow is run some errands and pack for my trip. I'm partially looking forward to it and partially not. I'm excited to see my family and friends, but at the same time, I'm not really looking forward to TOO MUCH FAMILY (if you know what I mean), and the whole process that is "juggling family members." Since my parents don't get along, I have to make sure I see everyone, but not too much, and not one more than the other, and all of that. And then I will get the guilt for going to b0st0n. Oops.

Part of me is also nervous about being specific with my grandparents about Jen. I'm glad to do it, because I don't like conceal things, even by accident... and because I want to take her home with me around the holidays, and I want things made clear. Of course, making things clear might eliminate the holidays. I suppose we'll see. I've been trying to stay optimistic and think good thoughts. Whee!

And something, whether it's the impending visit, or my prolonged unemployment, or other factors, has made me very sensitive lately, and not in a good way. The smallest things seem to hit me really hard, and I've been taking ordinary behavior as slights and issues. That, and I've been going from zero to emotional in 3.4 seconds. It seems to be exacerbated by my current feeling that I am losing some of my friends. I realize that some single people may not want to hang out with couples (fifth wheel syndrome?), but what about me? I mean, it's not like I'm in a couple 24/7. I dunno... like I said, I've been oversensitive. But I also predict that I will be losing some friends. Bleh.

Anyway, The Girl should be home for lunch in a few, so begone, evil computer spirits! AWAY!