A blessing? A curse?

[judecorp]

LiveJournal can be a blessing and a curse. I guess all things in life are this way to some degree - nothing can be all good, right? I don't know. I'd like to think that some things are all good. Like ice cream. Really, what's not good about ice cream? That reminds me, it's almost Tin Roof season. Sean, you will have to get frozen custard with me at least once. Please.

I had a really interesting conversation with Jen tonight over dinner. I say 'interesting' because I'm not sure I like how it turned out. I like that we have differing opinions on things, but I always feel weird when she starts to come over to My Side because then I worry about changing her or influencing her away from her position or whatever. She has my heart exactly the way she is, so I get freaked out when I think she might be changing for me. I guess any conversation has the ability to influence the person I'm conversing with, though. Words have the power, and all of that. I'm so glad, too, that we trust each other enough to disagree on issues or point out hypocrasies (is that a word?) without the other person getting all in a twitch. I just really don't want her to make a bad situation bigger or worse that it already is, or to do the exact thing she's upset about in the first place.

Chronicling my life for nearly three years has been overwhelmingly positive for me. I have met interesting people. I have gotten back in touch with people I'd had a hard time keeping up with. I have amassed random information. I found some old friends and am keeping them close to me. I have networked. I have been able to share writing with people I love sharing writing with. I have been able to rant politically, share funny finds, and create silly polls. I can look back on three years of entries and see where I've been and who I've become. I've never been able to keep a paper journal going for more than three weeks. This is Big Time.

But not without its costs.

Comments

[siercia]

Only problem with ice cream is its tendency to apply itself to the waistline, and then take up permanent residence =(

[siercia]

Also, I think there's a big difference between changing because the person in your relationship has opened your eyes to a new way of seeing things, or has /motivated/ you to make a change for the better without forcing it on you, and changing because your partner is (to some degree or another) demanding that you change. I don't think you need to worry too much about your Jennifer.

[livinginfits.livejournal.com]

did you know that tin roof went out of business? they actually closed well before the end of frozen custard season last year... there is good news, though. ritter's has just opened another location no where near tin roof! that doesn't mean we can't go there, of course.

[folkyboy.livejournal.com]

maybe i'm too analytical, but i love it when someone deters over to my side of an arguement... it shows i've stated the case well...

[http://users.livejournal.com/_epiphany_girl_/]

Woohoo! We of your fan club cordially thank you for keeping your journal, too. :)

Im sorry I havent been responding more to your stuff lately. I feel for you and Jen and how stressful/exciting the move it. I just dont feel I have much to add. So just know Im thinking of you. *smooch*

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

What? Tin Roof went out of business? I should have been suspicious when I called them and their number was disconnected, but I guess I'm a little daft sometimes. Crap! No Tin Roof! I am all agog.

I have never been to a Ritter's. Is it good? Is it really fattening and will add to my Seangut? I need to know!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Well, yeah, but I try not to think about that part. ;)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Good. Because it's one of the things I'm really paranoid about. What's funny is that I don't feel the same paranoia about my friends, or changing their opinions in any way. Just the person I'm with.

Because, of course, I'm a total nutcase.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I like it when a friend/acquaintance comes over to My Side, and I don't feel the same paranoia as when a partner does. I guess I've just heard too many nightmarish tales about people who have gotten into relationships and turned into completely different people, puppets of their former selves. Although I suppose it's ridiculous to think you can be someone's significant other without having them influence you at all.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

It's okay - it sounds like you've been busy so much too, with G. and with your dad and with OA and with your job and everything.

I'm just glad things are pretty okay for you right now. I'd been worried but the Mama Hen thing has subsided a little bit.

p.s. The whole moving thing is getting to be very stressful, but I'm trying to ease through that. But ARGH! It's driving me nuts!

[swisscheesed.livejournal.com]

At first I panicked because I thought you were going to delete your journal...I hope that's not the case, because I love reading about you!

Plus, it's our only connection thus far.

[siercia]

Because, of course, I'm a total nutcase.

Well, duh. Why do you think we love you? ;P

I understand where your fear comes from, it even kinda makes sense.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

It's true. I think people keep me around, with all of my nuttiness, because it makes them look saner by comparison. I am convinced of this.

Mwah. Thanks for seeing where I'm coming from. Maybe that makes you nuts, too. ;)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Nah, right now I'm too attached with the idea of having chronicled three years (almost) so far, and looking back to see where I've been. It seems almost like a different life, the stuff at the beginning - and I honestly believe I have LJ to thank for at least SOME of the changes. (Positive and not-so-positive)

When I'm back on the East Coast, I'm sure I'll be taking some trips to The City. Squee!

[http://users.livejournal.com/_epiphany_girl_/]

*hug*

deep breath...

VENT!

You'll get through it. And on the other side is all kinds of good things. :)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

True. I just want it to be OVER already. :)