Frustrated Incorporated
Jun. 27th, 2005 10:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I feel like I'm so behind in my life. I'm so ready for the next step - for the house and the kids and the happily-ever-after. I feel like I've been ready for years, but right now it all seems so far away.
We could move to Woonsocket and have enough money to make babies, but all of the good lesbian health resources are here. And things are better legally here. And there are more things that we like to do here.
We could stay here, but we'd be too broke to have babies, because we couldn't afford childcare or for one of us to stay home. And we couldn't buy a home. And we don't want to buy a tiny little condo (that we might not also be able to afford).
I feel so lame... like I'm well educated and in the middle of a career that I was pretty much made to do, so I feel like things should start falling into place for me and Jennifer. Where's our piece of the American dream? We both work too damned hard and I just feel like we are /this/ close. We can /see/ what we want but we just. can't. reach. it.
I'm so frustrated with my life.
We could move to Woonsocket and have enough money to make babies, but all of the good lesbian health resources are here. And things are better legally here. And there are more things that we like to do here.
We could stay here, but we'd be too broke to have babies, because we couldn't afford childcare or for one of us to stay home. And we couldn't buy a home. And we don't want to buy a tiny little condo (that we might not also be able to afford).
I feel so lame... like I'm well educated and in the middle of a career that I was pretty much made to do, so I feel like things should start falling into place for me and Jennifer. Where's our piece of the American dream? We both work too damned hard and I just feel like we are /this/ close. We can /see/ what we want but we just. can't. reach. it.
I'm so frustrated with my life.