Relaxed already

[judecorp]

Happy birthday, michael622!

My 4pm home visit got cancelled, so I was able to go home earlier and straighten out the crazy bill I got from Boston IVF. Now I know we only owe them for the yearly sperm storage fee. Much easier to stomach than the scary big bill for EVERYTHING we've had done there.

I also called to cancel my last acupuncture appointment. I feel more relaxed already. Also, no one answered the phone and it went to voicemail, so I was able to /totally/ avoid conversation. I decided to cancel after Jen called me and left me a message saying that she strongly urged me not to go since it would likely not end up in a positive result. I took her words to heart, and realized that I'd also been sort of dreading going anyway. I hate to waste the money (we pre-paid and you have to pay if you cancel in less than 24 hours) because I /hate/ wasting money in general, but I feel like this is for a greater good.

So instead of going somewhere that I feel anxious and potentially having a confrontation with someone I don't mesh well with, I will enjoy a leisurely evening at home and cook a delicious dinner for my lovely wife that we can share together when she gets home from work. And then maybe we'll settle in and watch a few more episodes of the final season of Queer as Folk, since we can't seem to get new discs fast enough!

Jen and I have had our ups and downs over the years, and we've certainly had no shortage of crappy things happen to us, but I still think we make a pretty good team. She really stepped up with the love and comfort when I was very upset about the acupuncture mess, and I'm incredibly grateful for that.

Comments

[indigodove.livejournal.com]

I think you made the right choice. Have a lovely evening!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I'm about to go to bed now! :)

[indigodove.livejournal.com]

Bed is good :-) I like it there!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I do, too... even though I can't always sleep. (Like right now. I don't have to be up for an hour yet but I've been awake for a while now!)

[indigodove.livejournal.com]

I hate when that happens. I go in phases with it too, especially when I'm busy.

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

I think having a supportive spouse or partner is absolutely crucial to someone going through infertility. When we m/c I lost 4 lbs in 24 hours. I wouldn't eat or drink anything. Felt like I wanted to die. Joel sat by my side the whole time handing me kleenex after kleenex as I sobbed. He finally persuaded me to eat a grilled cheese and took me out for a slurpee (my fav). I probably would still be in bed wallowing if it weren't for him.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

That is awesome that Joel was so great for you when you were feeling so much pain. I'm glad you had someone right there. Sometimes when things are really hard and sad/stressful for both of us, Jen and I fall into hard times. We're definitely trying very hard to work on this - it became hideously apparent that we needed to last summer when my dad died. So it's a slow process but I know it will be worth it in the end.

Slurpees are awesome. That would have gotten me out of the house, too! :)

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

It's a blessing to have good spouses and friends. I'm looking forward to the day we can share a slurpee together.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Sounds good! I especially like to have slurpees (or icees or whatever) at the movies. I don't know why, but I do.

I need to meet this super spouse of yours. :)

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

Ditto - We are going to come to Boston one of these days to meet up!!! Maybe next summer.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Sounds great! :)

[michael622.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much! :)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

You're so welcome. I hope it was great!

[ladyoracle.livejournal.com]

Glad to hear that you're not going back to the wicked acupunturist.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Me too, actually. :) Yay!

[skreeky]

I'm so glad you didn't go back.

And yay for sweeties. UP WITH LOVE!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Yes! Up with love!