judecorp: (trapped)
judecorp ([personal profile] judecorp) wrote2006-07-03 06:49 pm

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This is bad. I can't even get up the motivation to go to Target to buy toilet paper. I wish there was a toilet paper delivery service. I just don't know what to do. I'm fine when I'm distracted but then I start thinking about waiting until September and I get all teary again. I never used to be an emotional person but to have come so close to something and then... guh, it feels like someone dangled a baby in front of me and then put a nice thick glass wall between us. I can see exactly what we're missing... and don't have a soul around who can relate.

It's when I'm down in it that I miss Columbus the most. I probably would have had 10 well-intentioned distracting phone calls by now, and an offer or two of something to keep the mind busy - bike gangs, group tv watching, pbr at betty's, a little aerobie in goodale park, some deck time at pete's. Here I've been counting the hours til Jen comes home from work... about 3hours15 now... started counting around 6.5... tick, tick, tick, tick...

[identity profile] rockymtnhigh.livejournal.com 2006-07-03 11:01 pm (UTC)(link)
I'd offer to deliver you some toilet paper, but I think by the time I got it there, it could be an emergency situation.

And, we'd love to offer you some distractions too. Wanna come over for some turkey burgers on the grill? Angelfood cake and strawberries? Swatting mosquitos?

Damn the distance.


Hugs from both of us

[identity profile] judecorp.livejournal.com 2006-07-05 01:50 am (UTC)(link)
Awwh, that would be awesome if you could come deliver some toilet paper to me... because then I could see you and catch up. (You've been awfully quiet these days.) If I could make it out there to see you and Bec, I totally would. In a heartbeat.

Hugs.

[identity profile] vlindinhauer.livejournal.com 2006-07-03 11:16 pm (UTC)(link)

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damn ...

well, come on out to the Island, there be a bon fire at Yirrell Beach (the beach that connects to Deer Island, a continuation of Winthrop Beach proper) starting at dusk.

you could pick up toilet paper on the way home ;)

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[identity profile] judecorp.livejournal.com 2006-07-05 01:50 am (UTC)(link)
Sadly, I got this info after I'd spent an hour at Target spending far too much money... although I'm sure I would never have made it out there alone since I was having major motivational issues. This process is just so draining. What I need is a good haircut. ;)

[identity profile] estrange.livejournal.com 2006-07-03 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah that sucks. I would feel the same way. Maybe you could try the clomid again next month (August) so at least you'd feel like something was going on?

[identity profile] judecorp.livejournal.com 2006-07-05 01:52 am (UTC)(link)
Well, if they end up doing the HSG in August since July is booked, they're not going to let me do Clomid. I asked about doing Clomid and the HSG together this cycle back when I thought I was actually going to get the HSG this month and the doctor's office said no, they don't do that.

That sucks, cause I know a girl who took Clomid on days 3-7, had an HSG on day 9, and got her BFP on day 30.

[identity profile] estrange.livejournal.com 2006-07-05 05:50 pm (UTC)(link)
What exactly is a HSG?

[identity profile] rainbow-slinky.livejournal.com 2006-07-04 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
Big hugs from Manny, Maxlet and I. That is so unfair. :(

[identity profile] judecorp.livejournal.com 2006-07-05 01:52 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you. All of you. :)

[identity profile] carina-s.livejournal.com 2006-07-06 07:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Come visit!

[identity profile] judecorp.livejournal.com 2006-07-07 01:13 am (UTC)(link)
I wish I could! I MISS YOU!