Enough with the crying!

[judecorp]

I had another big crying jag on Jen last night. Ugh.

I hope this is just hormonal crap because I have never felt so unstable and broken

...and guilty about it.

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[laserkitty.livejournal.com]

hormones don't leave after the baby comes fyi. i said this weekend that i would have made a great catholic - i feel guilty about everything.

[folkyboy.livejournal.com]

¤hugs¤

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I'm really hoping that when I get off this fertility train, maybe I can take a little time letting my body return to it's totally screwed-up-hormone state (before 'corrective' meds) so that I can go back to my high testosterone, low progesterone, mellow existance.

We'll see if that ever happens. Heh.

And if it makes you feel better, I was raised Catholic!! So it's a double whammy! I feel sad! I feel guilty about making Jen sad! I feel guilty about hurting the baby with my sadness! AUGH!!!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

*makes out with you*

[laserkitty.livejournal.com]

I was raised Catholic too...

[sudrin.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm not a Woman, or a Doctor, but I know all kinds of Women get all kinds of pregnant with healthy babies.. What about the stories you read about girls who don't even know they are pregnant until they give birth to (healthy) babies? :)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Oh wow, I didn't know that! :)

You learn something new every day. I don't know why I always assumed you were of some sort of protestant denomination... but I guess that's Peas.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

You know, I don't believe that people can honestly not know they are pregnant. I mean, I understand how powerful denial is, and how your mind can dissociate from things... but you HAVE to know. I mean, dude, seriously, something's gotta go *ding*. Maybe it's all of those times you start crying watching a freaking commercial, or maybe it's the fact that you start having all of these totally random abdominal pains, or maybe when your center of gravity kind of goes off... but something's gotta point to KNOCKED UP.

(Of course you are then free to shrug it off and say it's bad cheese or whatever, but still.)

[laserkitty.livejournal.com]

I went to Catholic school k-4 and then public. My parents switched from Catholicism to Presbyterian. I currently have no home faith to call my own.

Religion is weird. :)

[afullmoon.livejournal.com]

Ugh I am sorry. Pregnancy is hard on emotions.

[marshmelococoa.livejournal.com]

bad cheese! LOVE IT!

And wait until you get those jabs in the ribs - sorry, but gas just doesn't feel that way. I've never had to fart so bad that my breath gets taken away for a moment! They just gotta know!

And I think most of the female population with previous even semi-normal periods would freak out after a month but most assuredly after two months of missing and pregnancy should be the first thing they think of. Nobody thinks, hmmm, I must have some reproductive disease or syndrom showing up out of the blue. seriously.

Sorry you're feeling emotional. It's hard and I'm sure Jen understands. It gets harder and it gets better but sorry, it doesn't ever really go away. It just changes. *hugs*

[skatured.livejournal.com]

On the bright side, at least you were emotional only with Jen and not the grocery check out person, your mail lady or a co-worker. So, really, it's okay! :)

Here, have an internet hug anyway. ;)

[aminahfiddler.livejournal.com]

I'm also a reforming Catholic.

Guilt it must be all of our middle names.

[hazelpeach.livejournal.com]

I'd have to agree.

I was a tough-bird before SweetPea came along. I rarely cried at movies. Now I do.

I'm diagnoised with PMDD, which I am SURE is what is wrong wtih my mother and my sister. (They have extreme mood swings), bec hormones never really go back to the way it was.... However, I am thankful for Lexapro! :)

And yea, I totally don't understand how can others 'not' know'. I've heard of ONE case where she didn't know until she thought she was having bad gas. The thing? she went through this THREE TIMES!!! And had Three babies! On the third, she requested to have her tubes tied. She never had regular period. She was overweight.. but still.. how could you NOT know??? I'm baffled as much as you are.

[tea-soaked.livejournal.com]

If you gotta cry, you gotta cry.



*hugs*

[marshmelococoa.livejournal.com]

Three times? For real? There has to be something wrong with these people.

[luloubelle.livejournal.com]

It must be something in the water, because my testosterone levels are way too low also. ;)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I went to Catholic school K-12. I was a super-Catholic! I did Peer Ministry, taught CCD classes, was a youth representative to parish council. Craziness!

[bec4joy.livejournal.com]

wow, Look what I have to look forward to.. I luv reading your journal.. I get so much insight...

And if it makes you feel any better Jude.. I was raised Southern Baptist... Not sure if you can even compare catholics to them in anyway.. No matter what you feel sorry..

Oh I farted.. better ask God for forgivness

[(Anonymous)]

Oh the hormones... the hormones! I've turned into an absolute psycho crying freak. It seems like pregnancy takes every emotion you might have and magnifies it times 12, so if you feel sad you feel 12 kinds of sad, if you feel happy then it's 12 kinds of happy. I have had days of feeling very down too, but it will pass and then you'll have some days when you are so filled with lovingness your eyes will feel like they're going to explode with the joy of it all.
I can understand why you're feeling sad about the other baby too (even though it's never happened to me). I think when you start to get the feeling that your pregnancy is a whole other little person in there then you would wonder about the little person you lost. I'm so sorry you're sad :-( I hope you feel better soon.

xxx Mermaidgrrrl

[goddamnelf.livejournal.com]

Be well Jude. I am thinking good thought into the void of you.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Yeah, this is pretty crazy. It's really messing with me.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Awwh, thanks.

And yeah, I can usually keep it in check with strangers.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

But do I HAVE to cry? That is what I'm wondering.

All of these female hormones are KILLING my gender identity.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

We need to work on that!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Ha ha ha, your mileage may vary, of course. Maybe you won't cry like me!

Oooh, Southern Baptist is more hardcore. You'd better ask for forgiveness just for bringing it up!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Mermaidgrrl. It's nice to know I'm not the only crazy person out there.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Mike. How are you doing?

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I totally agree! I never had regular periods (most of the time no periods) but whenever I would sleep with boys I was ALWAYS worried about being pregnant even though I had major history of never getting a period.

I don't understand people.

[marshmelococoa.livejournal.com]

Maybe the key is they didn't think/know/realize they were sleeping with boys? Passed out or sleeping or something? Or maybe they really believed him when he said, "hey baby, don't worry, I'm sterile." HAH!

Ya'd think they'd at least consider it a possibility and spend the $7 to test and at least rule it out?

I also never knew you had slept with boys. Learn something new every day. Boys are dumb.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Oh sure. I like boys. I was married to a boy for a while, even. He was a nice boy, but we were all wrong for each other.

I like to kiss boys but I'm not as into their little peenies.

[marshmelococoa.livejournal.com]

See what I get for being the new girl on the list?!

And me, I like their peenies but think the rest of them sucks most of the time!

[goddamnelf.livejournal.com]

Pretty good. Not very active on live journal right now. My home pc is still down, but being worked on.
I am about to go crazy in new orleans for mardi gras, but other than that, i hate my job, and miss the outdoors. So nothing unusual for me.
Hows little mike doing?
And you and jen of course. Hope things go smoothly for you two.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

HA!

Do you want more unknown shockers? Should I tell you now or later that I once dated my brother's ex-girlfriend? Or that we both kissed the same girl at my first wedding? Or that my dad kept trying to get me to steal my ex-husband's new girlfriend? (Dad was super inappropriate at all times.)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Get some beads for me, will ya? You can be crazy in every way that I can't.

Little Mike is good. You should come see 'im sometime!

I can't believe it's been so long already since we were all in New Orleans.

I got your beads right here....

[goddamnelf.livejournal.com]

I have beads and plenty of them, and if you would like, I could send some to you! I wish I would have gotten some stuffed animals, because you could have had them for the little one.
It seems both long ago, and very recently that we were in N.O. together. As far as visiting, I plan on winning the powerball soon, so a trip to the frozen north could be on the way like spring.
Talk to you later, and hopefully I will be able to get back into lj soon, and keep track of what is going on with you and Jen.

Re: I got your beads right here....

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Well, we don't really NEED beads but the cats kind of get jones about them. But they didn't do anything to deserve them!

I can't wait until you win the Powerball and can come visit. That would be awesome! Are you still making a billion dollars at work? I hope so!

xoxoxo

[marshmelococoa.livejournal.com]

oh my! Sounds like fun times! ;)