No, I appreciate the "think positive" stuff but not so much when I just had the third dead baby in front of my face. Maybe later this afternoon or tomorrow I will be more positive.
It's so surreal to feel this way. My baby can be thumping away inside me to say "thank you for the raisin bran" (she REALLY likes raisin bran, good for me) and I can still be worrying that she will be dead later.
It's so weird. I consider myself a very rational person who is pretty even-keel but every single thing that has to do with this baby can reduce me to tears in seconds. Last night at dinner Jen and I were talking about her family (and how I feel they disrespect her sometimes) and I was getting majorly teary just thinking about how I don't want my baby to see her mommy get treated that way.
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Date: 2007-02-22 02:53 pm (UTC)It's so surreal to feel this way. My baby can be thumping away inside me to say "thank you for the raisin bran" (she REALLY likes raisin bran, good for me) and I can still be worrying that she will be dead later.
It's so weird. I consider myself a very rational person who is pretty even-keel but every single thing that has to do with this baby can reduce me to tears in seconds. Last night at dinner Jen and I were talking about her family (and how I feel they disrespect her sometimes) and I was getting majorly teary just thinking about how I don't want my baby to see her mommy get treated that way.