I don't think Jen was being thoughtless at all. I do, however, think she has no idea what it is like to entertain our kid all day. ;) But I think she was just curious as to what I did for the rest of the day. I just never have much to say to those kinds of questions, because the reality sounds like less than it is.
I just wish she was a happy kid. I know that babies aren't happy all the time, but it is so difficult to make her happy. I alternate between feeling bad for her and wondering if there's something wrong that I don't know about. And I compound the issue by doing things like going to playgroups or trying to hang with other mamas, because I have never (and I have met a lot of babies) met a baby like mine. Ever. In all my life. So to go to playgroups is especially depressing and makes me self-conscious. Blarg.
I guess I just think that someone different might have the magic that will make her smile. She will be whining at me all day and then Jen will walk through the door and she just starts smiling. I want some smiles, too!
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Date: 2008-02-07 02:34 am (UTC)I just wish she was a happy kid. I know that babies aren't happy all the time, but it is so difficult to make her happy. I alternate between feeling bad for her and wondering if there's something wrong that I don't know about. And I compound the issue by doing things like going to playgroups or trying to hang with other mamas, because I have never (and I have met a lot of babies) met a baby like mine. Ever. In all my life. So to go to playgroups is especially depressing and makes me self-conscious. Blarg.
I guess I just think that someone different might have the magic that will make her smile. She will be whining at me all day and then Jen will walk through the door and she just starts smiling. I want some smiles, too!