Wistful dreaming of the future.

[judecorp]

I love this song. I have loved this song for as long as I can remember knowing it. Equally as long, I have dreamed of the day when I will sing it to my children.

It's in my head now. And I'm thinking about children. I was talking to Schoolmate Brenda yesterday during our meagre break about children. (Brenda just had an 'oops' baby girl nearly 20 years after her youngest son was born.) Brenda knows (it came up during her pregnancy) that I have pregnancy-a-phobia, and she knows that I can't have children (a quirk of fate that I think works out quite well), but she perpetually teases me about "the day I will change my mind."

But I digress. Yesterday in the hallway, Brenda was talking about my having kids. And I once again reminded her, "Brenda, I'm not having kids. I'm adopting kids." And with all of her you-need-to-have-a-baby enthusiasm she chirped, "You never know. Your partner may want to have a baby." And for all of my talk of being afraid of pregnant women (which Brenda teases me mercilessly about, and did so while she was bouyant with the alien growth), the thought made me smile. The smiling startled me.

Of course, then Brenda started talking about how I would like to rub my pregnant partner's belly and feel the baby kick, and I got all squicky again. Heh. Poor Brenda. She tries so hard. Kasey is cute, though, six months old. =)


St. Judy's Comet
Words and music by Paul Simon

Oo, little sleepy boy
Do you know what time it is?
Well the hour of your bedtime's long been past
And though I know you're fighting it
I can tell when you rub your eyes
You're fading fast, oh fading fast

Won't you run come see St. Judy's Comet
Roll across the skies
And leave a spray of diamonds in its wake
I long to see St. Judy's Comet
Sparkle in your eyes when you awake
Oh, when you wake, wake

Little boy, little boy
Won't you lay your body down
Little boy, little boy
Won't you close your weary eyes
Ain't nothing flashing but the fireflies

Well I sang it once and I sang it twice
I'm going to sing it three times more
I'm going to stay 'til your resistance is overcome
'Cause if I can't sing my boy to sleep
Well it makes your famous daddy look so dumb
look so dumb

Won't you run come see St. Judy's Comet
Roll across the skies
And leave a spray of diamonds in its wake
I long to see St. Judy's Comet
Sparkle in your eyes when you awake
Oh, when you wake, wake

Little boy, little boy
Won't you lay your body down
Little boy, little boy
Won't you close your weary eyes
Ain't nothing flashing but the fireflies

Oo, little sleepy boy
Do you know what time it is?
Well the hour of your bedtime's long been past
And though I know you're fighting it
I can tell when you rub your eyes
You're fading fast, oh fading fast

Comments

[scottopic.livejournal.com]

Great song by a great writer.

Whoa,sudden memory rush.

(or maybe Red Bull...not sure)

I couldn't agree more.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Paul Simon is a genius who makes my heart soar.

Seeing him this past summer made up for everything else that happened.

Re: I couldn't agree more.

[scottopic.livejournal.com]

Ahh, did you mention this? (old brain means faulty memory) -- where'd you see him?

For some reason "Me and Julio down by the schoolyard" can make me get all misty...

Re: I couldn't agree more.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

This is when I saw Paul Simon in Columbus in July. (http://www.livejournal.com/talkpost.bml?itemid=6514868)

When my brother and I were a little younger than we are now (oh, I'd say 6-7 years ago), we would throw boozey parties in his apartment. And we would play "Me and Julio." And we would do our own drunk version of the jitterbug. And it was awesome.

Whenever I hear that song, I have to dance, and think of Baga.

[scirocco.livejournal.com]

Can I sing this to little Hannah when I learn it? I'm going to go find an MP3 of this today.

Of course!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

You most certainly can! I just adore my little HannahBean, and I think she would love it. She would say "dah. dah. dah. dah."

I can rip it and email it to you if you can't find the MP3.

[rizzo41.livejournal.com]

How funny. You how I generally dislike children. A buffer of 6 feet or so is most comfortable. But I love pregnant women. I think they are so cute with their funny pregnant clothes and big bellies. As long as they aren't the white trash kind down at the mall with a beer in one hand and a string of six raggedy children who are all getting screamed at and smacked. However, I do not like to feel their freakish moving stomachs. My friend Cheryl was never so insulted as when I yanked my hand off her stomach with a horrified "UGH! GOD! That was *disgusting*!" hee hee. Oops.

Alien Life Forms

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

There is nothing freakier (to me) in the whole universe than watching a very pregnant woman's stomach /move/. Like, when there is a bump and it is an elbow or a knee or something equally gross. Ick.

I don't mind /looking/ at pregnant women. I also think lots of jumper overalls and maternity clothes can be very cute (except when they have bows and ties in all the wrong places). I just, for the love of god, DO NOT WANT TO TOUCH! Ewww!

(And I'm afraid to hug them, because I'm afraid that /thing/ will kick me!!)

Speaking of pregnant women, I wonder if Erin had her baby yet. I should call her.

Re: Alien Life Forms

[yarnaddict.livejournal.com]

There are some people who should not be pregnant. If you can't stand the thought of feeling a new life moving inside you - which I personally thought was the most incredible, amazing, miraculous thing in the universe - you are probably one of them.

Re: Alien Life Forms

[siercia]

I've gotta say, I was certainly weirded out by the experience. Not grossed out, but I thought it was weird. I got used to it, but certainly was never enraptured by it.

Re: Alien Life Forms

[yarnaddict.livejournal.com]

Different strokes, et. al. When I was pregnant, my brother's girlfriend at the time had to leave the room if Cady was active, it so comletely disgusted her to see kidlet moving. I loved it. But I was totally into being pregnant and all that. It certainly isn't for everyone. I get squicked by watching surgery on the Learning Channel, but I know people that think it's utterly cool. So eh. IDIC.

Re: Alien Life Forms

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Now surgery is something I can /really/ watch! :)

Re: Alien Life Forms

[yarnaddict.livejournal.com]

Okay, I officially don't get it. Watching someone digging around someone else's insides, a totally un-natural occurance, doesn't bother you at all; but the thought of a baby moving inside someone else's pregnant self, a totally natural occurance, squicks you?

Man. You're /weird/. =) Good think you're so smurfalicious.

*hugs*
The Evil Twin

Re: Alien Life Forms

[siercia]

My husband got both! He got to watch (and get a anatomy lesson during) my C-section. He loved it. I think I would have passed out.

Re: Alien Life Forms

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I can't explain it. Granted, it could be because I've never been around pregnant women... or women in general (the only woman in my formative years was my grandmother... and well, my aunt, but they adopted because they couldn't conceive). But the surgery thing is just my scientific curiosity.

Don't get me wrong, I think pregnancy is miraculous and wonderful and spiritual and all of that... it just freaks me out. Hardcore.

Still love me? :)

Re: Alien Life Forms

[yarnaddict.livejournal.com]

I don't think I could handle getting my tongue pierced, so... it's just a matter of differing aesthetics or something, maybe. =) I don't think there's anything /wrong/ with it, I just don't think I could do it myself.

Still love you? Hmmm... *pause for thought*

'Course. =) Still love me back?

*snugs*
The Evil Twin

Re: Alien Life Forms

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

You know I do, baby girl.

*snugs*
The Good One

Re: Alien Life Forms

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Dude, forget about me! I can't stand the thought of feeling a new life moving inside /anyone/.

(But I would never rob you of your enjoyment!)

[kungfoogirl.livejournal.com]

I have two recurring nightmares. In one, I get killed and then havet o try and come back from the dead and save all of my friends. Very weird.

The other is that I somehow wind up pregnant.

The latter is the one that scares me the most.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Did I ever tell you the dream that I had where I was pregnant and didn't know it, and then I gave birth to a fetus made out of "pink pearl" eraser? And I was /so/ happy it was a stillborn, eraser baby because I was /so/ freaked by the whole 'having a baby' thing.

I woke up in sweats, with my heart pounding. I have never been so scared in my whole life. I took a pregnancy test the next day, even though I hadn't even been in the situation where I could have become pregnant in a year.

So, umm, I know how you feel.

[kungfoogirl.livejournal.com]

I totally understand.

I can't tell you how much that weirded me out. Like, rip out my stomach kind of weirded out.

Ick.


But I *so* want a little karate kid so that I can dress her in a gi and send her to karate.

I'm destined to be a karate mom.

On gis.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Today Deborah (the coordinator of the Rape Education and Prevention Program) saw me walking down the hall and thought I was some kid wearing a gi. This is what she told me at 8:45am. How bizarre.

I'm wearing Baga's yellow shirt, a white tank top, and khakis.

A gi? She's nuts.

Re: On gis.

[kungfoogirl.livejournal.com]

I'm totally not allowed to comment on any part of this. Any.

But I will say that she is definately on crack. =)

[siercia]

You can be Widget's long-distance, adoptive karate Mom!

Since she will be a karate little girl, and I am karate-clueless.

[kungfoogirl.livejournal.com]

Oh my.

Don't toy with my emotions like that!

I would adore being her adoptive karate mom. I'll come up for all her belt tests! And I'll send her karate goodies.

OK. Now I'm all distracted......

[siercia]

I am SO not toying with your emotions. She's going to need a good karate mom. How young do they start them, anyway?

Nightmares

[mythicalbeast.livejournal.com]

I have only one Nightmare that I can hold only from adult life. As a child I had NightTerrors, but I have no idea if dream imagery (that I can only rarely recall... but that's progress considering when sleep tested I didn't enter deep sleep even once, thus no dreams) is part of the sleep problem. Anyway... I'm not preggers in it, nor are there Alien's chestbuster bits.

I'm at university, and I've forgotten about a course, or gave up on a course then forgotten, so I've never been to a class, and I'm now sitting in an exam room. I'm spooked all day.

Re: Nightmares

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

That's very interested. I'm always really keen on hearing other people's nightmares.

Most of my dreams are recurrent. They are not identical, but there are certain "dream themes" that are always variations on the same thing.

It's like deja vu all over again. :)

Being unprepared for an exam would be an anxiety-provoking nightmare for me, definitely.

Speaking of pregnancy teasing

[siercia]

You should have seen the look on our boss's face when he heard Miss Shani referring to Widget as creature, and even better... "that parasite". He was appalled with two p's

Re: Speaking of pregnancy teasing

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Ha ha ha ha ha!!!

I would never call my Widget "that parasite." Well, except when she was in the womb. *shudder*

=)

Re: Speaking of pregnancy teasing

[siercia]

Well, that's when this was as well. Shani wouldn't touch me, she so didn't want to feel Widget kicking. It was pretty funny. Of course, she also has an absolute horror of breastfeeding, so I was able to tease her about that as well.

Re: Speaking of pregnancy teasing

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Now see, I can deal with breastfeeding with absolutely no problems.

Baby out of body? A-okay. :)

[cappucinogrrl.livejournal.com]

Hurrah for Paul.