Dear Mom...
Jan. 28th, 2002 08:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
judecorpShe finally emailed me back! No mention of my email at all... just lots of stuff about the dog and my cats and 'when do you finish school and what are your plans?' So I wrote back to her. I wrote the longest email I've ever written my mother.
Highlights:
Next weekend, my friend Louise is flying out here from New York for the weekend (yay!) which will be a lot of fun. Then I can just chill out for Valentine's weekend, and the weekend after that, I'm headed out to New Jersey to spend the weekend with Jennifer. She is interviewing for a theatre arts program at BU and I am driving up with her. I'd like you to meet her sometime, as she has (re-)become very important to me and my life. She'll be relocating to Boston in the fall, so opportunities abound!
2001 is over and I feel like a completely different person. I know, though, that rather than being someone new, I am rediscovering the person I was before Aaron and I got together, and while I hate the situation that I'm in and I hate the idea of breaking a commitment that I made for life, the idea that I am getting a second chance to be who I am is stunning. It's ironic that I'm moving back to the place I wanted to live, headed back to the career I wanted before, and am involved with the person I had a terrible crush on all through college. Whoever said life is a circle is right.
I wonder how many times I can dance around the topic before she stops asking me how my life is, and will instead stick to questions like: What are your plans for after graduation? (Oh, wait, I could answer that one about girls, too. Hrm.) Maybe What is your middle name? is a safe one.
I am determined to see this woman in March, and speak to her about who I am and what I like. And /who/ I like. And, for the first time in 6 years, maybe she won't change the subject or dodge the issue. I'm hoping now that by avoiding the "I'm going to look dead in your face and tell you things you don't want to hear" tactic, she will get used to the idea and listen.
Highlights:
Next weekend, my friend Louise is flying out here from New York for the weekend (yay!) which will be a lot of fun. Then I can just chill out for Valentine's weekend, and the weekend after that, I'm headed out to New Jersey to spend the weekend with Jennifer. She is interviewing for a theatre arts program at BU and I am driving up with her. I'd like you to meet her sometime, as she has (re-)become very important to me and my life. She'll be relocating to Boston in the fall, so opportunities abound!
2001 is over and I feel like a completely different person. I know, though, that rather than being someone new, I am rediscovering the person I was before Aaron and I got together, and while I hate the situation that I'm in and I hate the idea of breaking a commitment that I made for life, the idea that I am getting a second chance to be who I am is stunning. It's ironic that I'm moving back to the place I wanted to live, headed back to the career I wanted before, and am involved with the person I had a terrible crush on all through college. Whoever said life is a circle is right.
I wonder how many times I can dance around the topic before she stops asking me how my life is, and will instead stick to questions like: What are your plans for after graduation? (Oh, wait, I could answer that one about girls, too. Hrm.) Maybe What is your middle name? is a safe one.
I am determined to see this woman in March, and speak to her about who I am and what I like. And /who/ I like. And, for the first time in 6 years, maybe she won't change the subject or dodge the issue. I'm hoping now that by avoiding the "I'm going to look dead in your face and tell you things you don't want to hear" tactic, she will get used to the idea and listen.
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Denial ain't just a river, Jude.
Date: 2002-01-28 06:10 pm (UTC)Where in Jersey, where in Jersey?
Re: Denial ain't just a river, Jude.
Date: 2002-01-28 06:16 pm (UTC)Well, we won't actually /be/ in Jersey very long, heh, 'cause we'll be off to Boston, but she lives in Closter. Which is some sort of suburban hell.
And yes, my mother has a healthy dose of denial at any given time. Last March I sat directly across from her and said (A. and I were still together at the time) that I was a lesbian and he got together with me anyway. She said, "You know, the dog was sick last week," or something like that.
Heh. But I suppose that's what happens when, like, you don't live with your kids.
She never stops talking about you.
Date: 2002-01-29 10:19 am (UTC)Last time I checked, my town wasn't named Closter. New Jersey must be full of these suburban hells.
Eh, her denial is her problem.
Did the dog recover? ;-)
Re: She never stops talking about you.
Date: 2002-01-29 10:43 am (UTC)New Jersey is either a) suburban hell or b) industrial nastiness. Be glad you don't live in nastiness, I guess.
The dogs always have one problem or another. One of them has stomach problems. The other one now has a broken tooth. I know this because she wrote me a long email about it. Heh. After I emailed her about Christina.
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Date: 2002-01-29 02:34 am (UTC)Finishing school
Date: 2002-01-29 04:55 am (UTC)Re: Finishing school
Date: 2002-01-29 05:05 am (UTC)I'll be going that general way around the 18th of June and again around the 23rd. Possibly. My rents have offered to pay for a flight, or gas, whichever I want. Haven't decided (but having the car there would be really handy for a number of reasons so leaning that way)
Re: Finishing school
Date: 2002-01-29 05:09 am (UTC)Re: Finishing school
Date: 2002-01-29 05:23 am (UTC)How are you going to come to Lag Day?!?!?
Re: Finishing school
Date: 2002-01-29 06:00 am (UTC)This sort of thing ALWAYS happens to me! Ugh!
Re: Finishing school
Date: 2002-01-29 07:17 am (UTC)Re: Finishing school
Date: 2002-01-29 07:18 am (UTC)Re: Finishing school
Date: 2002-01-29 07:24 am (UTC)Re: Finishing school
Date: 2002-01-29 08:57 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-01-29 09:05 am (UTC)Translation: Bob is an asexual bear. He is of gender 'bear'. He does not hold with your 'sex-ay' terminology.
I do. hey, baby...
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Date: 2002-01-29 09:08 am (UTC)