He feels so awful awful when he sees me on my knees.

[judecorp]

Closure is good. Moving on is good. New experiences are good. But this is a little too much.

Last day of internship - 5 June
Last day of marriage - 11 June
Last day of Big Gay Job - 14 June
Last day of school - 14 June
Last day of kickboxing - 29 June
Last day of Columbus - 30 June

In less than two months, I will pack up and move on from my internship, my job, my graduate program, my apartment, my marriage, my town, my friends, my employment connections, my recreational activity, and my stability. I simply don't have emotions left for anything else these days. Is that so hard to understand?

I am not asking for sympathy. I am not asking for pity. I am not even asking for help.

I'm just saying.

Comments

[qaphsiel.livejournal.com]

*sniff* I'll miss ya when you're gone...

[iansha.livejournal.com]

That's a lot of structure to lose in one month.

I hope you are taking care of yourself and getting as much into place /before/ you leave so that you have things to look forward to here.

ACK! I got all therapist on you. Listen to me... blah blah blah structure! :)
(did you giggle?)

You are strong. You are woman (rawr!).
That which does not kill us only makes us stronger.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

You are such a therapist, and I love you.

[laughingsal.livejournal.com]

Last year, in a one week period, I moved, broke up with my boyfriend, and started a new job. It gets better. :)

[jost.livejournal.com]

One thing you won't have to worry about a last day of: m3 cyb3r1ng j00!!!1

[wannabe-lola.livejournal.com]

Hmm... I wonder if it's significant that the only item you capitalized (other than the proper noun) was "Big Gay Job". Makes one wonder (okay, makes me wonder) if that's the thing you feel you'll miss the most. Whatcha think? On another note, you can always stay here!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Well, I capitalized Columbus, too, as it's a proper noun. I consider "Big Gay Job" to be a proper noun, too. :)

But that's a nifty observation!

[indigodove.livejournal.com]

*hug* It's a lot to do, sweetie. I remember how I felt last year at this time -- I was leaving social work, moving in with Ralph and getting married all within two weeks! Be gentle with yourself, and let me know if you need anything.

[juliann.livejournal.com]

My worst period, time wise,
Dec 1998
-- major problem with t, wedding was almost called off
-- graduate from U London with LLM, graduate from U Texas with JD. (Although I turned in my papers a bit late, whee.)
-- go to new orleans with my parents, completely re-arrange all of the wedding venue/time plans
-- start bar review courses

Jan 1999
-- visit t, resolve the broken trust issue (and it's never been even slightly dented since)
-- finish law school final paper while in London
-- more bar review

Feb 1999
-- batchelorette party at Mardi Gras on the electric glitter party bus of looooove
-- worst flu of my life, on the same week as
-- bar review (three day exam, two days of essays, one 6 hr multiple choice)
-- move to Illinois

March 1999
-- pack all of my stuff for international move
-- wdding shower I didn't want to have
-- t arrives for wedding
-- massive fight with father
-- my laptop stolen - two years work, incl my thesis that I planned to publish, all lost

April 1999
-- massive fight with my mother the day before 1st wedding
-- wedding
-- call on wedding night to say good friend was in hospital and would not be officiating 2nd wedding
-- hasty finding of new officiant (another friend minister) and writing of service
-- second wedding
-- during all of the above: goth con, with our friends from all over the world vying for our attention
-- get spousal visa
-- move to the UK leaving behind most friends and all family
-- water heater explodes in temporary flat
-- find new flat after much hunting and therefore
-- move again (this is three in three months if you are keeping track)
-- post-immigration malaise sets in during our honeymoon
-- threaten annulment b'c of being on verge of nervous breakdown from all of the above, honeymoon sucks rocks

May 1999: major breakdown, lasting ~7 months of major depression.

So yeah mom, I know what you are going through. :( Hang in there and holler if/when you need us!

[whod81.livejournal.com]

last day of columbus :(

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I'm currently weighing the difficulty of my dad being pissed at me with the difficulty of losing a significant chunk of stability.

Staying could be a viable option.

[auntiesiannan.livejournal.com]

Things change.

[00solstice.livejournal.com]

bleh, admittedly, all of those changes added up is a bit overwhelming.

I don't like the last one... :-(

maybe you could get a higher paying job in Boston, buy a lower cost-of-living house here, and commute by private jet each morning?

you could get one that is like Wonder Woman's invisible jet... nobody will see it, so you don't have to worry about registering it or paying taxes on it. just make sure to remember exactly where you park, because it would be a long walk home!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

just make sure to remember exactly where you park, because it would be a long walk home!

Thanks for the tip!