radio is sweeter then sedation

New car stereo. Elvis Costello. Ryan. Cheesecake Factory. Steve and Melissa. Fuzzy kitties. Warm summer nights. Open air venues. Manda and the Marbles. Sunshine. Meeting new cool people. Sleeping in. Health. Love. Bare feet on grass. Music pulsing through bodies. Water.

Life is good to me.

~//~

For a soon-to-be unemployed girl, I sure spend a lot of money.

~//~

i love the vibrant inner
pulsing you manipulate when
you pluck the string
inside my chest and my
soul reverberates with song.

thrum my blood,
staccato systole,
make me dance again.

The scent of lingering patchouli and cut grass on bare feet...

Last night, Ryan was making fun of me about my weakness for hippie girls.

( This is what I have to say about THAT! )

So true, so true.

Hey, a movie! Well, it's going to be terrific!

I have the following movies out from the library for the next 5 days:

Wonder Boys
Antitrust
Dancer in the Dark
Requiem For a Dream

Who's coming over to watch?

Juice by Jude.

Requiem For a Dream was a very difficult movie to watch. Somehow, the task of going to the grocery store for laundry detergent seems inconsequential, and in a lot of ways, it is.

I think that if I continue my movie marathon, the only other movie I can handle right now is Antitrust. I certainly know I'm not up for Dancer in the Dark. (I've seen that one before.)

Jesus. In my work, I run up against opposition all the time that shout from the rooftops that people should take entire responsibility for the way their lives turn out, that one reaps what one sows, that no one is owed anything because you earn what you get. Requiem shows so powerfully that there is a complex web of factors that interact and interplay to create the dynamic that is one's life. I think of the Ellen Burstyn character of Sara Goldfarb, and how she was just a lonely, aging widow with a troubled son - a lonely woman desperate for some attention and some happiness. She was a good woman seeking a little peace.

Happiness is something I strive to create in my personal life with every moment. Peace is what I strive to create in the world with every breath. I will run out of life, and with that, I will run out of breath, but until that day, I will strive. Happiness and peace.

I know I'll never be short on work to do.