Ebb and Flow

Friday night we went out to a spontaneous dinner of too much sushi and talked about timelines and donors and doctors and plans and houses and everything was so grand. I could have died of happiness.

This morning I feel like I got baited into an argument, I feel like crap, I'm sitting home doing a million chores, and then I will go shovel snow. Hunter S. Thompson killed himself and it's just plain a sad day.

Aaah, life. You're so ridiculous sometimes. Can't you, you know, be /even/ for just a weekend?

Free lunch

Since I didn't have to work today, and my Jennifer had to work from 12:30-9:30, I decided I would go up to the Pru to have dinner with her on her lunch break. As we were walking to the food court to hit up Qdoba for some YOM YOM burritos, Jen spotted money on the floor. No one was claiming it, so she picked it up - $20! We ended up splurging on Ben & Jerry's ice cream cones after dinner, and the whole affair cost me a total of $4.50 - $2.50 in train fare and $2 over to cover the rest of the ice cream.

Not too shabby!

p.s. Happy 32nd birthday, thinksnow! Miss you!

Last year

I am getting old. My goodness. I was just going through journal entries from 2001 and 2002 and all I can think about it, "Wow, I'm freaking OLD." I have almost 5 years of journaling sitting on this little website. I should probably back it up sometime, but part of me also wouldn't mind if it just up and vanished someday. Clean slate and all that.

I wonder if I would feel young again if I went back to school again. If instead of thinking about homeownership and parenthood and responsibility I would think about deadlines for papers and school vacations. For the first time in my life, though, I don't want to go back to school. I'm on a new mission, I have new goals, and as an incredibly goal-oriented person, I'm determined to get the job done. I don't care what I have to do or what sort of work I have to put into this, it's going to happen. You can take that to the bank.

I can't believe the progression of my life. Gah, I guess I really do just keep getting older, and not just because I started taking calcium supplements and reducing my caffiene intake and getting to work on time. My worldview is changing. I think about settling down, slowing down, routinizing. Did you know that 3 years ago around this time, Jennifer and I were planning our first vacation together, to a quaint bed and breakfast in Provincetown? Coworker Velma and I drove through the night to get to the East Coast. She chose CDs to introduce me to my lesbian folky foremothers or whatever. Gosh, it seems like a total lifetime ago.

2001 was the most challenging year of my life, and 2001 was 4 years ago. I guess we just keep flipping pages on the calendar. My cohort is turning 30 this year, and I will along with them. I never thought I would make it to 16. That was 14 years ago. Time is amazing.

Last year I shaved a girl's head. We'd just met. Last year I packed up and left a place I'd grown my own roots. Last year I worked my least favorite job ever. Last year my brother got married to a great girl. Last year. Only last year. I've had 29 last years now. I wonder what this year has in store for me.