I want to play.

I'm having another one of those "I want to play!" days because the weather is simply perfect. Unfortunately I have quite the full day today, with three hours of play group followed by a quick lunch followed by three back-to-back home visits. I'm a little nervous about my second because it's with one of my Vietnamese families and our translator starts her vacation today. She assures me that Mom speaks English but I really think it's wishful thinking on her part because whenever I have talked with her in the past, we just don't understand each other outside of certain courtesies like hellos and thank yous. So we'll see.

I'm still debating whether or not I should even go to my last session of acupuncture. I wanted to ask Jen about it this morning but she left for work while I was in the shower. I am so torn about the whole thing - do I go and risk a confrontation or do I stay home and waste the money and potential benefit? Drama.

My temps are up but I don't think I ovulated... I think I'm having one of those fake ovulatory charts. Eh, doesn't matter since nothing's going on anyway.

Did I mention that I don't want to work? Yeah.

Relaxed already

Happy birthday, michael622!

My 4pm home visit got cancelled, so I was able to go home earlier and straighten out the crazy bill I got from Boston IVF. Now I know we only owe them for the yearly sperm storage fee. Much easier to stomach than the scary big bill for EVERYTHING we've had done there.

I also called to cancel my last acupuncture appointment. I feel more relaxed already. Also, no one answered the phone and it went to voicemail, so I was able to /totally/ avoid conversation. I decided to cancel after Jen called me and left me a message saying that she strongly urged me not to go since it would likely not end up in a positive result. I took her words to heart, and realized that I'd also been sort of dreading going anyway. I hate to waste the money (we pre-paid and you have to pay if you cancel in less than 24 hours) because I /hate/ wasting money in general, but I feel like this is for a greater good.

So instead of going somewhere that I feel anxious and potentially having a confrontation with someone I don't mesh well with, I will enjoy a leisurely evening at home and cook a delicious dinner for my lovely wife that we can share together when she gets home from work. And then maybe we'll settle in and watch a few more episodes of the final season of Queer as Folk, since we can't seem to get new discs fast enough!

Jen and I have had our ups and downs over the years, and we've certainly had no shortage of crappy things happen to us, but I still think we make a pretty good team. She really stepped up with the love and comfort when I was very upset about the acupuncture mess, and I'm incredibly grateful for that.