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You know what I hate about myself? I hate that I swallow things down and push them back until they get to me so badly that I just melt down. And I hate that the person who gets the meltdown is probably the last person that ever should.

Basically, I just hate losing control, period. Between the accident, getting slammed at work, trying to get holiday things done, and the bitter realization that I could have lost someone very special, I guess I'm more than a little frayed around the edges. I guess I need a little more than I'm letting on.

Today I'm thankful to Jennifer, for putting up with me even in her hardest times, and Jodie, for calling this afternoon to ask if I am okay.

Love.