Let me explain. No, let me sum up.

[judecorp]

(Friends Only because I don't really need to advertise that I'm out of town.)

I didn't realize that my quick post would come out the way it did. I hate when something sounds one way in my head and then comes out another way through my fingers. I didn't really realize anything was up until my smurfbrother called to make sure I was okay. And I am, thanks for asking, I love you too. :) (monkeytard!)

The long and short of it is that Jennifer and I parted company at about 6:30AM Saturday - she went to terminal A and I went to terminal B. We had long-standing plans to get together on Sunday (yesterday) with lorac and William in Northampton to have some crazy fun. Well, Saturday night it looked like that whole outing was going to be scrapped because Jennifer's sister-in-law effed up Christmas in her family and decided to move Christmas dinner to Sunday without really caring if she had plans. So we had the endless Libra debate about whether she should stay home and do family stuff, or come to Northampton. And then there is the horrible part where her parents are now going to Atlantic City for Christmas (for Christmas! UGH!) since they won't be seeing the grandkids.

Well, by the end of an exhausting conversation (brought to you by the letter Z and too little sleep), she had decided that she should do the family thing. And I totally supported that. And I felt like I'd been kicked in the stomach. Yes, I know I had just seen her /that morning/. But I did. I felt like I was kicked. Hard. All the air was out of my body and my throat did that sort of thing where you think you might cry but your face scrunches up and you make a weird croaking sound and that's it.

She felt like total crap too, so she ended up deciding to come to Northampton anyway, and the four of us had a very lovely time shopping and eating and bowling and such. Carrie and William left around 8PM and Ms. Jennifer and I checked into out stinky Best Western room and had a most amazing night that was certainly worth feeling kicked in the stomach for. But at the same time, I wasn't /excited/ to be spending the night with her. It was more like I felt totally blah when I /wasn't/ spending the night with her, and just, well, /right/ when I was.

And it was lovely. And I deprived myself of oxygen accidentally and got lightheaded. And I'm a pathetic loser sap. And that's my story.

So yeah, everyone here is okay, visiting is fun, lah dee frickin' when do I get to go home to my normal life with my girl? dah. But Rick and Gretchen come tonight, and my friend Jeff from high school is coming out here with his wife Melissa tonight, and tomorrow I have lunch with Chrissy (also from high school) and then Christmas Eve dinner with the maternal unit, and then Christmas junk and then I go ho-o-ome (back to my little home on the range)!

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[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I could sure use the easy neighborhood access right about nowsies. I would like some holiday time with The Girl in front of our tree and stuff, instead of all of this, "I'll call you from Atlantic City if you can get some phone service at your mom's" crap.

Maybe when our "lack of long distance" relationship has gone on for a little longer, I'll lose some of this longing, some of the difficulty in goodbye... but I'm not sure I want to. I like the specialness, the way even though I see her every day I still smell her coat when I hold it.

Le heaving sigh. <3!

[iansha.livejournal.com]

Maybe when our "lack of long distance" relationship has gone on for a little longer, I'll lose some of this longing, some of the difficulty in goodbye... but I'm not sure I want to. I like the specialness, the way even though I see her every day I still smell her coat when I hold it.

I hope you never lose the 'specialness' either. :)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I adore you, Ms. Chaz.

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[iansha.livejournal.com]

*SMEWCH*