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Jul. 18th, 2003 12:38 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
judecorpI saw a bunch of people today. I crawled out of bed and did all of those water chores, and then I took Jen to get her root canal. While I was waiting for her to get done, I hung out with ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
doulamel who was playing hooky, and she bought me lunch! (Thank you.) Then I picked Jen up and we got to chill on the couch and watch Short Shorts which was... okay. Some shorts were good, some sucked. We then headed to Unemployed Alcoholic Night with Sean, Missy, Ryan, and Krusty. Jen was hungry and not feeling well, so we got her some food and headed home, where we watched the first two episodes of Buffy. (Now I can't say I never saw any episodes, I guess. I am just like everyone else.)
One of the shorts was about a couple who were trying to get pregnant. I had been pondering on the topic for most of the afternoon, and the downer of two beers didn't particularly help. I realized that there really isn't much of a place for me in the babymaking business. Much to my chagrin, I can't /really/ impregnate someone. But I can't get pregnant, either. So where do I fit in with all of this business? I mean, I have no problem adopting, in fact, I've always wanted to... but unless I live in a state that allows second-parent adoption, I'm SOL if my partner wants to have a baby or adopt. The whole thing is just so sticky.
Jennifer was a real angel about the whole thing, though. She's always very calm and understanding, and definitely listens and pays attention. She even offered, at one point, to carry one of my own fertilized eggs. That's not really an offer I would entertain, but it really meant a lot to me. That girl is amazing.
grrlpower posted something recently about how glad she was that she is a lesbian, about how she loves being involved with women because of the way she can connect with them. I have to say, I've got to agree with her - she's one smart cookie. There have been so few women in my life that I've actually totally connected with, and I always thought that it was proof that I wasn't meant to be with women (even though they are so much cuter!). But the more I think about it, the more I realize that there haven't been that many guys I've totally connected with, either. I was just friends with more of them, so it was easier to date them and start those connections.
The weird thing is that most of my "serious" relationships were with guys, and I don't think of them very often. I don't feel the pull of them. But there are women that I was with for very short times, or hardly above a surface level, or even mostly in my mind (yeah, that's you,laurajones, do with it as you will) - but I would revisit them in my mind, over and over and over. A touch, a smell, an idea, a brief fantasy... girls are hard for me to let go of.
Oh... and I have some relationship goals. Yes.
doulamel who was playing hooky, and she bought me lunch! (Thank you.) Then I picked Jen up and we got to chill on the couch and watch Short Shorts which was... okay. Some shorts were good, some sucked. We then headed to Unemployed Alcoholic Night with Sean, Missy, Ryan, and Krusty. Jen was hungry and not feeling well, so we got her some food and headed home, where we watched the first two episodes of Buffy. (Now I can't say I never saw any episodes, I guess. I am just like everyone else.)One of the shorts was about a couple who were trying to get pregnant. I had been pondering on the topic for most of the afternoon, and the downer of two beers didn't particularly help. I realized that there really isn't much of a place for me in the babymaking business. Much to my chagrin, I can't /really/ impregnate someone. But I can't get pregnant, either. So where do I fit in with all of this business? I mean, I have no problem adopting, in fact, I've always wanted to... but unless I live in a state that allows second-parent adoption, I'm SOL if my partner wants to have a baby or adopt. The whole thing is just so sticky.
Jennifer was a real angel about the whole thing, though. She's always very calm and understanding, and definitely listens and pays attention. She even offered, at one point, to carry one of my own fertilized eggs. That's not really an offer I would entertain, but it really meant a lot to me. That girl is amazing.
grrlpower posted something recently about how glad she was that she is a lesbian, about how she loves being involved with women because of the way she can connect with them. I have to say, I've got to agree with her - she's one smart cookie. There have been so few women in my life that I've actually totally connected with, and I always thought that it was proof that I wasn't meant to be with women (even though they are so much cuter!). But the more I think about it, the more I realize that there haven't been that many guys I've totally connected with, either. I was just friends with more of them, so it was easier to date them and start those connections.The weird thing is that most of my "serious" relationships were with guys, and I don't think of them very often. I don't feel the pull of them. But there are women that I was with for very short times, or hardly above a surface level, or even mostly in my mind (yeah, that's you,
laurajones, do with it as you will) - but I would revisit them in my mind, over and over and over. A touch, a smell, an idea, a brief fantasy... girls are hard for me to let go of.Oh... and I have some relationship goals. Yes.
