She said, "Ain't nothing gonna break my stride. Nobody's gonna slow me down. Oh no, I've got to keep on moving."
I've been pretty active this morning, and I'm glad for that. I woke up and read in bed for a little while. The weather seemed lovely (as far as I could tell in bed), so I got dressed and went for a bike ride. I probably went 10 miles or so, drank too much water and gave myself a stomach ache, and then went home. I started the laundry and hopped in the shower. I sent off a check to a friend who's doing a walk-a-thon, and finally got around to mailing those Scout patches to
jjustj. Jen came home and we had lunch, and the laundry's almost entirely done. Later today, my plan is to clean out the cat potties and read some more. I didn't ride my bike long, but I rode hard, and my legs are tired. Going up and down the stairs with the laundry reminds me that I was outside! :)
Jennifer and I seem to be going through some growing pains, probably at least somewhat related to getting used to living together. Last week was pretty stressful and upsetting for me, and she's still swimming in the thesis mess, so we weren't connecting as well as we'd like to. We were on and off each other's nerves for most of the weekend, and were pretty upset with each other on the way back from Yellow Springs. The whole weekend just reminded me that while I think it's okay to expect a certain amount of interest from my partner, I can't expect her to know how upset I am about something if I'm not saying anything. And I really REALLY need to stop letting things go until they become too big for me.
It's crazy that we take turns practically arguing about who is the worse partner. We are so alike emotionally that we even guilt ourselves the same way. It's a damned good thing that neither of us is one of those people who tries to make another person feel bad with passive aggression or comments, because we're both experts at making ourselves feel bad about presumed indiscretions.
I think, when you get right down to it, we're both trying really hard to be the best people we can be individually, while also trying to be the best partner ever. We're both inclined to set really lofty goals and expect immediate results, and to get frustrated when we don't feel we've "measured up." We both want to be immediate experts. Maybe it's time we gave each other (and ourselves) a break and just let some things go, realizing that when push comes to shove, we've got respect, devotion, love, and determination in spades.
I should ride in the mornings more often. I have an overwhelming sense of clarity and peace today.
I've been pretty active this morning, and I'm glad for that. I woke up and read in bed for a little while. The weather seemed lovely (as far as I could tell in bed), so I got dressed and went for a bike ride. I probably went 10 miles or so, drank too much water and gave myself a stomach ache, and then went home. I started the laundry and hopped in the shower. I sent off a check to a friend who's doing a walk-a-thon, and finally got around to mailing those Scout patches to
Jennifer and I seem to be going through some growing pains, probably at least somewhat related to getting used to living together. Last week was pretty stressful and upsetting for me, and she's still swimming in the thesis mess, so we weren't connecting as well as we'd like to. We were on and off each other's nerves for most of the weekend, and were pretty upset with each other on the way back from Yellow Springs. The whole weekend just reminded me that while I think it's okay to expect a certain amount of interest from my partner, I can't expect her to know how upset I am about something if I'm not saying anything. And I really REALLY need to stop letting things go until they become too big for me.
It's crazy that we take turns practically arguing about who is the worse partner. We are so alike emotionally that we even guilt ourselves the same way. It's a damned good thing that neither of us is one of those people who tries to make another person feel bad with passive aggression or comments, because we're both experts at making ourselves feel bad about presumed indiscretions.
I think, when you get right down to it, we're both trying really hard to be the best people we can be individually, while also trying to be the best partner ever. We're both inclined to set really lofty goals and expect immediate results, and to get frustrated when we don't feel we've "measured up." We both want to be immediate experts. Maybe it's time we gave each other (and ourselves) a break and just let some things go, realizing that when push comes to shove, we've got respect, devotion, love, and determination in spades.
I should ride in the mornings more often. I have an overwhelming sense of clarity and peace today.
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Date: 2003-08-18 04:10 pm (UTC)We need to hang out Soon!
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Date: 2003-08-18 08:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-18 06:19 pm (UTC)we can grab breakfast or lunch or make something free!
330-554-1750 :D
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Date: 2003-08-18 08:15 pm (UTC)(I get up early.)
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Date: 2003-08-19 03:53 am (UTC)Enjoy what you have.
:)
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Date: 2003-08-19 11:48 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-08-20 03:31 am (UTC)