Role models

[judecorp]

I am always very flattered and honored when I find out that somewhere, somehow, I am some sort of a queer role model. I mean, I think I'm a good person, so I think if I'm going to somehow represent queerness, that's pretty cool. I've been told several times that I was the first real queer friend someone has had, or that Jennifer and I are someone's first queer couple friends, but the cutest was when Curt told Daina that we were the first queer adults he's ever met (or something like that).

Tonight I got a little dose of what that must feel like. We had our big run-through chorus cram session tonight and in one of our songs, our director thought it would be nice if some people went toward the crowd and started dancing. My beloved Patty and her partner Peg volunteered to do it, and then our director goaded two other couples to dance also. It was so damned beautiful seeing those three couples, all older than me and together for long periods of time, slow dancing together. I know I've said before that I get sappy when I'm sick, but my goodness, when I saw the one woman with the all-grey hair gazing into her partner's eyes with adoration, and then her partner whispering something in her ear that made both of them laugh softly... well, I about lost it. Someday, they will be us, and she will brush silver strands off of my forehead and I will place my hand on her lower back, and we will dance, slowly and purposefully, in front of the world.

I'm so glad I live in a time where six women can slow dance together in front of a crowd of people. There is so much progress that still needs to be made, but tonight I can rest happily and dream of older women in love.

Comments

[siercia]

That's so beautiful. Made me teary. I wish that for you both.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I wish you could come to the concert. I think you would really enjoy it.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Oh, and Jen and I are considering the March on April 25th. Are you going?

[cappucinogrrl.livejournal.com]

Aw. And I'll be watching from the sidelines in admiration ;-)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I think you'd be dancing, too, with your soon-to-be smoochie that you will be nuts about.

[goddamnelf.livejournal.com]

Ahh, that is what I was going to dream about! I am curious though, when the couples are dancing, is the chorus still singing, and if so, do the dancers also sing?

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Well, they were singing still, but more to each other than as part of the performance. I don't know what they'll do at the concert.

[jennbits.livejournal.com]

at some point the entire world needs to quit passing judgment on others.. especially the people who do no harm.

progress is slow, i realize. im so proud of you every day on so many levels.

Thanks.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I'm proud of YOU, though frankly that userpic scares me a little. :)

[jeffholton.livejournal.com]

Try "queer ambassador" instead of "queer role model."

And I do think that you are. I've learned quite a bit about humanity and love and friendship from interacting with you for the past couple years. I'm grateful for that.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Jeff,

That is one of the nicest, sweetest things anyone has ever said to me. I'm not sure I really deserve that kind of praise, but I will certainly thank you for it.

You have been nothing but a good and positive influence on my life, and I have always been grateful for your friendship and your open hospitality. You and Dina are going to be such wonderful parents, because you are such wonderful people.

Love.

[jeffholton.livejournal.com]

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