drip... drip... drip...
Mar. 25th, 2004 04:36 pmThis is torture. I have never been a victim of capture, of interrogation, of the mafia. If I had ever experienced these things, I believe I would liken the oppression to sitting beside an open window on quite possibly the first verifiable spring day. The lawn of my workplace is filled with outdoor visits for the first time since we purchased new calendars. Daffodils are sprouting from the overpriced mulch below my office window. There are spring sounds: birds and children and car radios through open windows.
My building is the ghost town the Brady Bunch visited en route to the Grand Canyon. The administrative assistant likely has Peter and Bobby locked in a jail cell near the Director's office. The majority of my coworkers are out doing "home visits," an expression I cannot possibly use loosely enough today. Perhaps I should say "attempts," though it is not likely the faults of the families that services will not be delivered this afternoon. I imagine my coworkers getting "lost" on their ways to the houses, stopping instead at parks, ice cream parlors, home.
It is, of course, Thursday. Which means Cover Day. Which means "chained to the desk." Here I am, sitting, near the window, near the daffodils, near the children, near the springtime. I could be on my bicycle. I could be at Highbanks. I could be taking a nap with a cat curled on my lap. Torture. Didn't I say that before?
Productivity today has consisted of setting up the PCS Vision on Coworker Sarah's phone as she read through my journal history, skimming for her name. Aaah, my little narcissist - we have 4 work days left together. She asks, "Should we download the theme to COPS?" as if we're in a relationship, and I comment thusly. Her response is a loving, "Shut the fuck up."
Days like today, I wonder why we insist on relying on silly things like paychecks and money. Surely, on days like today, we could find ways to sleep on the land, drink sunshine, and nourish our bodies with life. I am drowning in this torture tank. Deliver me home.
My building is the ghost town the Brady Bunch visited en route to the Grand Canyon. The administrative assistant likely has Peter and Bobby locked in a jail cell near the Director's office. The majority of my coworkers are out doing "home visits," an expression I cannot possibly use loosely enough today. Perhaps I should say "attempts," though it is not likely the faults of the families that services will not be delivered this afternoon. I imagine my coworkers getting "lost" on their ways to the houses, stopping instead at parks, ice cream parlors, home.
It is, of course, Thursday. Which means Cover Day. Which means "chained to the desk." Here I am, sitting, near the window, near the daffodils, near the children, near the springtime. I could be on my bicycle. I could be at Highbanks. I could be taking a nap with a cat curled on my lap. Torture. Didn't I say that before?
Productivity today has consisted of setting up the PCS Vision on Coworker Sarah's phone as she read through my journal history, skimming for her name. Aaah, my little narcissist - we have 4 work days left together. She asks, "Should we download the theme to COPS?" as if we're in a relationship, and I comment thusly. Her response is a loving, "Shut the fuck up."
Days like today, I wonder why we insist on relying on silly things like paychecks and money. Surely, on days like today, we could find ways to sleep on the land, drink sunshine, and nourish our bodies with life. I am drowning in this torture tank. Deliver me home.
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Date: 2004-03-25 09:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-03-25 11:04 pm (UTC)Aah well, I just got off my bike.
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Date: 2004-03-25 11:26 pm (UTC)ps, i /love/ the radios out of car windows. it's my absolute favorite spring sound.
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Date: 2004-03-26 05:41 pm (UTC)But if I end up taking a more administrative non-profit position, perhaps I could pull it off.
At this point, though, I just want a job!!