Kaleidoscope without Bucky
Apr. 14th, 2004 05:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
judecorpKaleidoscope isn't the same without Bucky. Not a little. Not at all.
Bucky interviewed me. Bucky trained me. Bucky did numerous events and lock-ins and open hours with me. Bucky became my friend, and shared my love of goth toys, John Waters films, and bizarre music. Bucky confided in me when he was suffering from job dissatisfaction, when his job looked "up in the air," when he got screwed over again and again. Bucky always asked me for favors last, because he knew I couldn't say no to him.
I grew to love Bucky, and to love Kaleidoscope because of Bucky. I joined committees to keep an eye on things, so I could ensure the safety of Bucky's job. I came back to the Center after a hiatus because I missed Bucky. I wrote emails and lodged complaints and spoke to Board members, because I didn't like the way he was treated. I swore that I would cut ties with Kaleidoscope when Bucky left.
And now he's gone, and I have a few weeks left, and I just don't want to go. I love Patty and I love Phoenix Pride, and I like Angie, but it's just not the same. For me, Kaleidoscope IS Bucky. I don't like being one of the old holdovers.
The whole thing just makes me really sad.
Bucky interviewed me. Bucky trained me. Bucky did numerous events and lock-ins and open hours with me. Bucky became my friend, and shared my love of goth toys, John Waters films, and bizarre music. Bucky confided in me when he was suffering from job dissatisfaction, when his job looked "up in the air," when he got screwed over again and again. Bucky always asked me for favors last, because he knew I couldn't say no to him.
I grew to love Bucky, and to love Kaleidoscope because of Bucky. I joined committees to keep an eye on things, so I could ensure the safety of Bucky's job. I came back to the Center after a hiatus because I missed Bucky. I wrote emails and lodged complaints and spoke to Board members, because I didn't like the way he was treated. I swore that I would cut ties with Kaleidoscope when Bucky left.
And now he's gone, and I have a few weeks left, and I just don't want to go. I love Patty and I love Phoenix Pride, and I like Angie, but it's just not the same. For me, Kaleidoscope IS Bucky. I don't like being one of the old holdovers.
The whole thing just makes me really sad.
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Date: 2004-04-14 09:49 pm (UTC)KYC is about volunteering your time...because you want to be there....if you don't want to be there anymore, then...in all honesty you don't have to. We have like 5 weeks of in C-bus time left.....5 wednesdays or so sooner and everyone can just deal.
We can maybe meet up with Patty outside of KYC....and hang out. I am finishing up my responsibilities...and I wasn't even sure if I was going to be able to make it all the way through with everything that needs to be and will need to be done.
I hate to see anyone force themselves to go somewhere they dislike when they don't have to. Especially somewhere that only reminds you of the person you miss, you know?
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Date: 2004-04-15 04:41 pm (UTC)[nora]
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Date: 2004-04-15 10:24 pm (UTC)It's just so... painful for me to drag myself over there. Argh. Will we see you before we each take off for respective adventures? Hunh hunh hunh?
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Date: 2004-04-15 10:24 pm (UTC)Suck.
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Date: 2004-04-15 10:59 pm (UTC)Looks like we will be doing an Ohio--->New England migration around the same time--I'm already planning for life without concrete corn.
Just wait, we'll cross paths again.
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Date: 2004-04-18 06:38 pm (UTC)And you'll be sneaking corn in with you.
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Date: 2004-04-18 06:37 pm (UTC)