Holding Pattern

[judecorp]

It's early in the morning. I got up around 7 to check email, because I am lame. I feel quite out of touch without my home, my cats, my stuff, and of course my computer. Jenn&Wiley have made their home very comfortable and welcoming to us (thanks!) but after a while, I'm always ready for my own stuff.

It's Thursday, which means we're leaving here in 2 days for another Hell Drive. Then we start packing, while continuing to go to work as normal. We have to sell so much stuff: my car, the entertainment center, Jen's wardrobes, the washer/dryer, the rest of my living dead dolls... it's so daunting. I've never sold a car before. Packing will take forever, I think, since it will be interspersed with work and volunteering and goddamnelf's visit and all of that.

I called the place I interviewed on Monday and didn't get called back. I was going to drop in and see things in action, like they suggested, but whatever. Tomorrow I have another interview. I sent two resumes out yesterday morning. We got called back from the small apartment, and tonight we hear about the large apartment. I am thinking good thoughts. The jacuzzi tub will be OURS!

My apartment is in limbo, my employment is in limbo, and in some ways I feel like my whole life is in limbo. Sometimes I'm not sure who my friends are in Columbus, who will be sad to see us go, who won't care. Sometimes I'm not sure what I was thinking when I decided to move back to a place people last knew me in 1998, a shadow of the person that I am now, a distant memory of that girl. I guess all good things, like growth, take time. I am confident this will be good for us. I just need to keep reminding myself of that.

We have a mellow day today, nothing scheduled until the Good Apartment at 6:30 and dinner with the lovely Shani after. I should call the Small Apartment today to let them know I got their voicemail. Hopefully I can be passive-aggressive and just leave a message on their machine. Maybe the mellowness of the day means that I can take some time a reconnect with my center and my love.

I'm quite the moody smurf this morning, I guess.

Comments

[laserkitty.livejournal.com]

Even though we don't see you much, I will miss you.

[iansha.livejournal.com]

Oh man. If anyone understands, it's me.
I'm thinking good thoughts for you on the apartment and the jobs.
Enjoy the time off while you have it! :D

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I am thinking incredibly good thoughts for you.

[vorpalbla.livejournal.com]

"Sometimes I'm not sure who my friends are in Columbus, who will be sad to see us go, who won't care"

I am, I will, and I won't--er, won't not?

[folkyboy.livejournal.com]

whenever you are on a precipice of life...there's really no way for it not to be in limbo. moving to another state is much like birthing a child. you're never ready. you just do it :) i know you'll make all the right decisions. ¤hugs¤

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

So will you, my friend.

*hug*

[volumeat11.livejournal.com]

Me and Melis are honored to be your coup de gracie then.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

We [heart] you guys. Yeah!

(And now all Jen will talk about is mortgage brokering.)

[volumeat11.livejournal.com]

You're welcome for dinner. (I know what it's like to move -- every stupid nickel counts!) This just means we'll have to head over for a BBQ or something!

And I could totally see Jen do well at it. She's smart, sales-oriented, and approachable -- all super-key components of selling a mortgage! I think she'd get bored with my job, to tell you the truth.

But we're glad we got together with you guys! Won't be long now until you're HERE!!!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

WAHOOOOO! See you sooooon!