judecorp | Scattered Brainwaves

Kristofer: I ate movie food for dinner. Popcorn. I know, I know. Hee.

I went to internship, and that was cool. You know, I really like being there. I like the people. They're nice. I like my job. Then I went to the class that I'm going to drop. It's a shame that THAT is my expendable class - there isn't much work, the professor seems nice, and two people I /really/ like are in it (Tiffer and Stace). Aah well. I don't think I can do 13 credits and two jobs, though. Bleh.

Tonight when I was walking back to my car, I was singing "Dreams" by The Cranberries. When I turned on the ignition, that very song was on the radio. I burst into laughter in my car. Loud laughter that wouldn't stop. The song reminds me of someone, and I was singing it to remember. And life was reminding me, too. Nice.

They'll come true, impossible not to do
Impossible not to do

I realized, when I was in NY (especially when I was with several old friends doing what Mark called 'working the room' - which I wasn't, sheesh!), that after that first Saturday night when I was feeling a little bummy about A., I really didn't think of him much. On that Tuesday when he was all worried about me and Jodie, I really didn't want his concern. He wasn't the furthest person from my mind or anything (I was actually very appreciative that he called my mom and dad and stuff), but he wasn't even close to being one of the people I wanted near me during a time of tragedy. And after that, he was hardly a thought. Is that cruel? I don't know. I think it's just moving forward. And it's done wonders for my mood, and my energy, and my everything.

My days here have been much more pleasant and giddy. I was in NY for 9 days, and I think somewhere in there I uncovered the girl I was before. Phew! I thought I'd lost her.

And this story's for you, Princess: Tonight in my class, the prof asked for introductions that said what we would want to be or do if we could be or do anything. I said I wanted to be a superhero. She asked which one. I said, "Oh, I don't know. Superman." She replied, "Super/man/?" in that stunned 'I never think outside the box' way. It was beautiful. I smiled and said, "Yes" in such a way that she absolutely had to go along with it. She returned the smile and said, "I bet you wish you could have flown up and snatched those airplanes, then."

Dr. Randi Love, you have NO idea.