Queen Slack of Slackytown
Sep. 14th, 2004 11:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
judecorpUgh. I have all of these e-mails sitting on my various accounts and I have zero motivation to answer them. Some of them have been sitting for a long time. Like, over a month. At least. I am so slack-ass.
I billed for like 9 hours today. It was non-stop. I had playgroup from 9:00-12:00 with 9 two-year-olds, then a center visit at 12:45, a home visit at 1:30, and an assessment at 3:30. I came home and did not really want to move. But I managed to empty the dishwasher and pick up a little bit. I answered about 30 back comments, too, so I suppose I was somewhat successful. I kind of envy those people who can get online from work... although I know I am more focused on work this way. I am so easily distracted.
I majorly gaffed this afternoon at the assessment and didn't completely go over the results with the family. I feel kind of bad about that (but I know I can go over it more thoroughly with them next week). What I /really/ feel icky about is that I did it in front of one of my coworkers that I respect the most, and now I am all paranoid that she thinks I'm an idiot. I'm sure she doesn't, but you know.
I just wish I liked this job. I wish my head was in it and that I was driven to do well in it. I am committed to providing the best service I can to my families, but I just feel so... mentally exhausted about the whole thing. The one thing I /really/ like is my playgroup - go figure. I just have the most adorable children EVER. No, really. Even the nutty ones. ;) I guess the bottom line is that I wish I had the knowledge and the drive to really be a kick-ass EI worker, so I could make the best of my situation. When I was interviewing for jobs, I told all of my interviewers that I was tired of switching jobs so much and was looking for a job that I could really stay at for a while and get settled. And now I'm IN a job, and they WANT me to stay forever (they lose people like flies, which is what happens when you hire a bunch of young women of marriage/child-bearing age I guess), and I don't want to. Aaah, bitter irony. I'm pulling another long day tomorrow, but not long like the 7:45pm day (since we have dinner plans).
In my thoughts tonight are the Satterfields and Peas, who might have a GREAT opportunity. Go Peas go! Also Jen, because she is always in my thoughts. :)
I billed for like 9 hours today. It was non-stop. I had playgroup from 9:00-12:00 with 9 two-year-olds, then a center visit at 12:45, a home visit at 1:30, and an assessment at 3:30. I came home and did not really want to move. But I managed to empty the dishwasher and pick up a little bit. I answered about 30 back comments, too, so I suppose I was somewhat successful. I kind of envy those people who can get online from work... although I know I am more focused on work this way. I am so easily distracted.
I majorly gaffed this afternoon at the assessment and didn't completely go over the results with the family. I feel kind of bad about that (but I know I can go over it more thoroughly with them next week). What I /really/ feel icky about is that I did it in front of one of my coworkers that I respect the most, and now I am all paranoid that she thinks I'm an idiot. I'm sure she doesn't, but you know.
I just wish I liked this job. I wish my head was in it and that I was driven to do well in it. I am committed to providing the best service I can to my families, but I just feel so... mentally exhausted about the whole thing. The one thing I /really/ like is my playgroup - go figure. I just have the most adorable children EVER. No, really. Even the nutty ones. ;) I guess the bottom line is that I wish I had the knowledge and the drive to really be a kick-ass EI worker, so I could make the best of my situation. When I was interviewing for jobs, I told all of my interviewers that I was tired of switching jobs so much and was looking for a job that I could really stay at for a while and get settled. And now I'm IN a job, and they WANT me to stay forever (they lose people like flies, which is what happens when you hire a bunch of young women of marriage/child-bearing age I guess), and I don't want to. Aaah, bitter irony. I'm pulling another long day tomorrow, but not long like the 7:45pm day (since we have dinner plans).
In my thoughts tonight are the Satterfields and Peas, who might have a GREAT opportunity. Go Peas go! Also Jen, because she is always in my thoughts. :)
