Queen Slack of Slackytown
Sep. 14th, 2004 11:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
judecorpUgh. I have all of these e-mails sitting on my various accounts and I have zero motivation to answer them. Some of them have been sitting for a long time. Like, over a month. At least. I am so slack-ass.
I billed for like 9 hours today. It was non-stop. I had playgroup from 9:00-12:00 with 9 two-year-olds, then a center visit at 12:45, a home visit at 1:30, and an assessment at 3:30. I came home and did not really want to move. But I managed to empty the dishwasher and pick up a little bit. I answered about 30 back comments, too, so I suppose I was somewhat successful. I kind of envy those people who can get online from work... although I know I am more focused on work this way. I am so easily distracted.
I majorly gaffed this afternoon at the assessment and didn't completely go over the results with the family. I feel kind of bad about that (but I know I can go over it more thoroughly with them next week). What I /really/ feel icky about is that I did it in front of one of my coworkers that I respect the most, and now I am all paranoid that she thinks I'm an idiot. I'm sure she doesn't, but you know.
I just wish I liked this job. I wish my head was in it and that I was driven to do well in it. I am committed to providing the best service I can to my families, but I just feel so... mentally exhausted about the whole thing. The one thing I /really/ like is my playgroup - go figure. I just have the most adorable children EVER. No, really. Even the nutty ones. ;) I guess the bottom line is that I wish I had the knowledge and the drive to really be a kick-ass EI worker, so I could make the best of my situation. When I was interviewing for jobs, I told all of my interviewers that I was tired of switching jobs so much and was looking for a job that I could really stay at for a while and get settled. And now I'm IN a job, and they WANT me to stay forever (they lose people like flies, which is what happens when you hire a bunch of young women of marriage/child-bearing age I guess), and I don't want to. Aaah, bitter irony. I'm pulling another long day tomorrow, but not long like the 7:45pm day (since we have dinner plans).
In my thoughts tonight are the Satterfields and Peas, who might have a GREAT opportunity. Go Peas go! Also Jen, because she is always in my thoughts. :)
I billed for like 9 hours today. It was non-stop. I had playgroup from 9:00-12:00 with 9 two-year-olds, then a center visit at 12:45, a home visit at 1:30, and an assessment at 3:30. I came home and did not really want to move. But I managed to empty the dishwasher and pick up a little bit. I answered about 30 back comments, too, so I suppose I was somewhat successful. I kind of envy those people who can get online from work... although I know I am more focused on work this way. I am so easily distracted.
I majorly gaffed this afternoon at the assessment and didn't completely go over the results with the family. I feel kind of bad about that (but I know I can go over it more thoroughly with them next week). What I /really/ feel icky about is that I did it in front of one of my coworkers that I respect the most, and now I am all paranoid that she thinks I'm an idiot. I'm sure she doesn't, but you know.
I just wish I liked this job. I wish my head was in it and that I was driven to do well in it. I am committed to providing the best service I can to my families, but I just feel so... mentally exhausted about the whole thing. The one thing I /really/ like is my playgroup - go figure. I just have the most adorable children EVER. No, really. Even the nutty ones. ;) I guess the bottom line is that I wish I had the knowledge and the drive to really be a kick-ass EI worker, so I could make the best of my situation. When I was interviewing for jobs, I told all of my interviewers that I was tired of switching jobs so much and was looking for a job that I could really stay at for a while and get settled. And now I'm IN a job, and they WANT me to stay forever (they lose people like flies, which is what happens when you hire a bunch of young women of marriage/child-bearing age I guess), and I don't want to. Aaah, bitter irony. I'm pulling another long day tomorrow, but not long like the 7:45pm day (since we have dinner plans).
In my thoughts tonight are the Satterfields and Peas, who might have a GREAT opportunity. Go Peas go! Also Jen, because she is always in my thoughts. :)
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Date: 2004-09-15 06:17 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-09-16 02:44 am (UTC)Do I?
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Date: 2004-09-15 04:24 pm (UTC)one you start it's hard to stop! believe me, i know.
personally, i can't stand having any unnecessary email in my inbox. but i think it's because i used Outlook for so long
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Date: 2004-09-16 02:45 am (UTC)I think I just get online and do other things. It's the same reason why I don't usually use IMs, because I get so distracted. I just want to, like, get my crap done and get away from the computer!
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Date: 2004-09-17 05:34 am (UTC)Recently my company 'migrated' us to a new Exchange server. Except they didn't migrate any of our mail, we had to do that ourselves. So I saved what was in my inbox, and my sent mail folders, and added that to my not-inconsiderable personal folders. Then, after setting up a new desktop, I had to copy these archives over.
It was a difficult process because they would not fit on a CD. I have something like 980MB of saved messages in just my work email. I am so ashamed.
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Date: 2004-09-16 12:44 am (UTC)Children play in endless days and grains of sand are ivory towers seen through blissful eyes. We should take a page from that storybook.
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Date: 2004-09-16 02:46 am (UTC)We need to arrange a date. Yes we do.
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Date: 2004-09-16 04:23 am (UTC)If I actually break the cycle of abuse, I am going to make veiled attempts at sociableness this weekend. Unfortunately, they are up here in the frozen north - Friday is an open mic that I've been lusting after for a while (specatorishly only), and Saturday is Grumps Night. Because there is a story I could tell you, and your heart would melt, and break, and stuff. So I'm doing that since they are finally being somewhere less than 50 miles from me yay. Hmm. It seems that I just feel like rambling here. Maybe I'm lonely. Maybe I'm actually hugging the screen for warmth. I like monsters with fuzzy toes. And I should go to sleep.
Regards,
Captain Cheval de Frise
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Date: 2004-09-17 12:06 am (UTC)When's the shower?
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Date: 2004-09-17 02:42 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-09-17 02:52 am (UTC)Sorry, knee jerk reaction.
If you want, we can pick a place, and then you can give me a call when things are wrapping up and we'll meet up. Or something. If you're motoring yourself aboot, we can even aim it towards amherst/nashua so you're moving towards home. I don't normally drink coffee, but I can fake it. Or you could even come to my house if you were feeling emboldened, but I generally don't expect that; I understand the booniness of it frightens you cityfolk. Also it is messy and there are cats and some people can't breathe in cat air.
Options are plentiful. Like m&ms.
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Date: 2004-09-17 02:57 am (UTC)I will give you a C-A-L-L when I'm done with the party of much babyage, and we will decide then. (Actually, I will make you decide since I'm a Libra and you're THE MAN anyway!)
Whatever is fine with me. I just wanna see yoooooo!