Olivia Benson just looks so doofy with longer hair.

[judecorp]

I just spent about an hour doing paperwork for my job. I am so hardcore, sitting around at 9:30pm on a paid holiday writing assessment reports. I am just that good. (Actually, it means that's one less full write-up I'll have to find time to do during the work week.)

My mom came to town today, and she was supposed to come early enough to see Jen before she left for work but things got all FUBAR'd and she ended up coming seriously late. She wants Jen and I to drive to RI on Sunday to see her one last time (she's moving to SC on the 18th), but that's our birthday and I'm really not sure I want to. Is that incredibly selfish? I mean, she's all moving away and stuff and I'm like, 'No, it's my birthday, I don't want to drive.' I dunno - we don't really have a close relationship or anything and who knows, maybe I'm being passive agressive about her moving or something. I don't think so, though.

I think I would have been more gung-ho about going there if we hadn't had the same old depressing conversation about how things are going here financially. I mean, she /knows/ we're kind of struggling a bit right now, and she /knows/ I'm grumpy about it, so why do we have to talk about it all the time? Can't we talk about kittens or ponies or rainbows or something? This time, though, she kind of crossed the line and seemed to be giving /me/ advice about /Jen's/ life. As in, things my mom thinks I should be encouraging her to do. This infuriates me.

I mean, sure, it's a given that it's pretty sucktacular that Jen is currently making less money than she was making in Columbus. And it's also a given that she has more debt than I do. And sure, originally the whole retail job thing was just a temporary fix while she found something more lucrative for said debts. But she likes it. And things have changed in our planning, what with Jen considering going back to school, among other things. And really, what's the point of looking for another job that she doesn't really want to do as a career, just for the sake of making more money in the short term?

I realize my mother is probably trying to be helpful, and I realize that she is probably trying to mother me. But I don't think she's ever really realized that we have never had a mother-daughter relationship and we probably never will, especially with her moving to SC next week. And I definitely think she has never realized that the best way to make friends and influence your daughter is NOT to criticize her partner without knowing all the facts, regardless if I withhold information from her or not. Heck, if somehow we work it out so that Jen sits home eating bon-bons all day, that's really none of her effing business.

Comments

[juliann.livejournal.com]

I say no go Sunday. Because spending one's thirtieth on the road to see one's inlaw, no matter how much you like them, is not most people's idea of fun. So spare Jen!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

EXACTLY.

Besides, if we're at my mother's house, how on earth can we have double-birthday nookie?

p.s. I know what I'm sending you for Christmas pressie!!

[folkyboy.livejournal.com]

i don't think it's selfish if you're not that close. i mean just spend the time to yourselves and let it go. i think you know what's best. you're one of the most level headed people i know

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

You're always nice to me. It's so funny! You're like my cheerleader! It's like if I wrote "Today I killed my neighbor," you'd be commenting, "I bet he really deserved it!"

p.s. I met my next-door neighbors last night after I dropped you off and they are SO CUTE (and young). So cute. You would DIE.

Also, they invited me to their Halloween party.

[folkyboy.livejournal.com]

ooh! fun fun! :) you and all these Halloween parties! haha

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Except they're both on the same day!!

[angelamermaid.livejournal.com]

I hate to tell you that your mother is never going to stop trying to mother you, no matter what your relationship. My mother is still trying to get me to do things her way, because I couldn't possibly be doing okay for myself my way, and I'm 38.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Great.

Sometimes I just feel like she doesn't have the right to mother me. I mean, when I really needed/wanted mothering, it wasn't really there. And now it's just not really an interest of mine. I don't let my dad dole out that kind of advice, why would I do it for an absentee parent, yanno?

[zuzubailey76.livejournal.com]

Hey, that's no way to talk about my Pre-Alex Femme Olivia! As we learned tonight, even psycho stalkers are compelled to complement her hair and makeup!

Oh, I guess you wrote like, a whole entry there, and I just bypassed it to comment on your subject line. I'll go back and read it now, I promise.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Hee, I've seen that stalker one SO many times, and I hate it hate it HATE IT when the slimy stalker compliments her on MAKE-UP. Liv does NOT wear make-up, thank you very much. She only wears tight t-shirts, men's trousers, fashionable belts, and short, delicious hair.