95%

[judecorp]

Maybe I'm a bit of a Birthday Bah Humbug tonight, but after three scorpion bowls (muy delicioso), my dad was really starting to tick me off. I was especially irked at the fact that he was reminiscing the Glory Days of my adolescence with my junior high/high school friend, Laurie - talking about all of the "good times" and how there were nothing but good memories. They laughed and laughed.

And I just wanted to make snippy comments like, "Oh yeah, right, except for the times when you were treating me like crap, telling me how worthless I was, and smacking me around."

You know, most of the time I think that I've 100% moved past all the crap in my childhood. But maybe it's more like a cool 95. (Aah well, a 95% is still an A+!!)

Also, man with a pierced nipple ON HIS LEG!!!

Comments

[hope-persists.livejournal.com]

omg that picture is terrifying!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I know, isn't that crazy??!?!

[folkyboy.livejournal.com]

Aughhh that scared the crap out of me!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Wimp!

[siercia]

Oh god, I so get you on that 95% thing. Like, everything's cool, no one's got issues anymore, then my Mother will come out with some comment that just makes me want to scream in her face and make her, maybe, you know, get it, that growing up in their house was NOT fun or easy or good. It's the sense that she doesn't see that (or is THAT deeply in denial of it) that occasionally makes me want to just smack her.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad someone GETS IT!

I mean, sure, everyone likes their memories to be sunshine and roses, but at least be /realistic/ about it, you know? Like, how much harder would it be to say, "Wow, we had a lot of struggles but we had some good times!"?

I mean, I'm not here saying my dad was all bad. But I'm not going to let him say he was all good, either. REALITY, people! :)

[biophile6.livejournal.com]

brain...breaking...

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

NIPPLE LEG!!!

[hoo.livejournal.com]

Never been so glad of the corporate web filter. I didn't really want to see it.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Ha! Wuss.

[(Anonymous)]

One day you should sit down with him and explain your feelings. I had the same situation and I could not take it anymore. I could not worry about how it hurt him. I started to realize all my actions in my life were coiming back to issues with him and my childhood.
In order to make it work in my marrige I needed to confront the past head on. I had this ball of anger inside of me. I could surpress it for a long time and them boom it would come out. Mainly at those close to me. After talking it out with my dad, and that was really hard to do because he did not get most of what I was saying. I felt so much better. I got years of hurt and anger off my chest. Now "he" can deal with all the crap I kept inside for so long. Just a suggestion. happy holidays

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Oh, he and I have talked about these things several times. He actually even came around and /apologized/ on a couple of occasions (which is a really big deal, because my dad doesn't apologize for /anything/). I'm not angry at him and I don't hold any kind of anger for him on any regular basis, based on what happened or his usual reaction about it. In fact, we talk quite freely about all of this stuff most of the time, whenever he's reliving "the good old days" or talks about what a great Dad he was. We're a pretty direct family, and my dad and I have a solid relationship. We're totally honest about this stuff.

He was drunk, and I was tipsy, and we had other company (a friend from high school and her partner) - so it was just irksome the other night. Not "oh my gosh, I'm going to kill puppies" irksome, but the combination of the alcohol and the friend made it impossible to really discuss the issue. So I was annoyed.

Aah well. He had a great night, so it was good for him.