To debate or not to debate?

[judecorp]

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about how I've been avoiding debates. Sometimes I actually extend the energy to get involved in one but then drop out of the debate after I say one little thing. I just don't have it in me right now, it seems like. I feel ridiculously apathetic. I feel like there's so much I could say about so many topics, and instead I leave little soundbites about Cookie Monster. There was a discussion on the mailing list for my volunteer job that I couldn't really get myself into, and I commented a little bit in a debate on same-sex marriage that I just don't feel up to responding to. I hate e-mail. I want someone to take me out to coffee and discuss issues in person, dammit!

Today I had four home visits. I did some office work and was out of there by 4:00. I volunteered from 6:00-8:30, but seeing as my volunteer schtick is near Fenway Park, I had to take the T in instead of driving (volunteer job sells their parking spaces to sports fans on game days) which took 60 minutes instead of 20. Sucktacular!

Tonight I want to sleep the sleep of the dead. I am so exhausted and I have no idea why. Maybe it's because I haven't been to the gym since last Thursday. Must rectify.

p.s. This morning I had a dream that I was in labor. And in a totally surreal moment, my dad arranged for some football hero to visit me at the hospital and throw footballs at me. WHAT THE HECK DOES THAT MEAN??!?!

Comments

[serenity-coach7.livejournal.com]

YOur dream makes me smile.. Something I would dream I think... Except I wouldn't be in the hospital but in the desert or int he ocean.. What do you do for volunteer work if you mind me asking?

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I can't imagine having a baby at the ocean - what about all the sand??!?!?

I'm a volunteer at Fenway Community Health's GLBT HelpLine (http://www.fenwayhealth.org/services/helpline.htm).

[buddhafly4224.livejournal.com]

Hey Jude,

don't mean to put you on the spot or anything, but i was wondering if you were free tonite and would be available to take my peer shift from 5-730. we're recognizing the day of silence at lasell today and don't want to miss out on our breaking the silence and what not. let me know, i'll owe you one. (:

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Lisa,

Good luck finding a replacement! Unfortunately I am TOO OLD to work on the Peer Line. :( I hope you found someone!

[folkyboy.livejournal.com]

i think that actually comes with age, actually. when we get older we just don't have as much drive for those things. and i think also we're smarter to just let those things go

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Dude, look at you all talking about being older when you're way younger than me! :)

But yeah, I definitely find myself drawing more into myself and my family as I get on in years. :)

[juliann.livejournal.com]

Ok I am behind on LJ. I think the labor + football thing is just the gender confusion issue again. Being the ultimate girl (giving birth) while still being a boy.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Hunh, really? I really didn't think too much about it... more like, "Yeah, that's something my crazy dad would do."

But your interpretation is certainly interesting and fun to think about!