Bummer bullets
Oct. 30th, 2005 09:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
judecorpThis has been kind of a bummer of a weekend.
I'm generally feeling sorry for myself because I have such a different social life than I had in Columbus, a social life that suited me quite nicely. I had a bunch of people who would call each other on a moment's notice if something came up, people who were generally non-planners so there was always something spontaneous to do. I'm not much of a social planner (probably because I have a scattered tendency to double-book) and Boston geographically and who-we-know-ally lends itself to requiring significantly advanced planning. The planning thing and the fact that we don't get a lot of phone calls from people who want to hang out with us are often in the backs of both of our minds.
I wonder if moving to a smaller, more laid back area will solve some of those problems. But then I wonder if I'm just kind of fooling myself, that this is all a part of getting older and I need to find a bunch of "meddling kids" if I want spontaneity.
2005 has been mostly craptastic. I'd like it to end now, please. Can't we just fast forward to next spring?
- I was kind of disappointed on Friday night because I wanted to get out of the house and that never really happened.
- I barreled down to RI on Saturday morning and spent the day watching some dude go through all of my dad's things. Most of the "collectible" things were acquired after I moved out of the house, which made me feel kind of out of touch with my dad's life. That kind of sucks since he's, like, dead now and stuff.
- It snowed on Saturday and I'm a certifiable Snow Hater.
- Family dinner on Saturday evening was a lot later than I expected, which got me home a lot later than I expected, which killed most Halloween party plans. We ended up stopping by Coworker Gina's shindig (it was only a few minutes away) 3+ hours later than everyone else (when a bunch of people were starting to leave) and taking off not long after.
- Jen is really sick which is a major bummer, though I'm sure that's much more of a bummer for her. But now I'm paranoid that I'm going to get sick. Which would be really sucktacular.
- Today was a gorgeous day but I had no one to enjoy it with. Jen was out of commission, Tim was in Ptown, Shani's in Alabama, and practically everyone else went to the Cape for Dr. Chris's marathon. I got a little outdoor time when I went to Coolidge Corner to hit up Trader Joe's, but that's hardly the same as hanging out with someone in the sunshine and having stimulating conversation.
- My mental state has pretty much been in the toilet since June. While this is probably to be expected, after five months of it I have to say it's really starting to push me down. I don't know how much longer I can deal with the roller coaster of emotions and the general apathetic malaise that seem to be plaguing me.
I'm generally feeling sorry for myself because I have such a different social life than I had in Columbus, a social life that suited me quite nicely. I had a bunch of people who would call each other on a moment's notice if something came up, people who were generally non-planners so there was always something spontaneous to do. I'm not much of a social planner (probably because I have a scattered tendency to double-book) and Boston geographically and who-we-know-ally lends itself to requiring significantly advanced planning. The planning thing and the fact that we don't get a lot of phone calls from people who want to hang out with us are often in the backs of both of our minds.
I wonder if moving to a smaller, more laid back area will solve some of those problems. But then I wonder if I'm just kind of fooling myself, that this is all a part of getting older and I need to find a bunch of "meddling kids" if I want spontaneity.
2005 has been mostly craptastic. I'd like it to end now, please. Can't we just fast forward to next spring?
